My best friend/the love of my life is leaving me tomorrow. I’ve heard his voice for what will probably be the last time in several weeks. I know I should be happy for him but I’m instead filled with bitterness that he’s leaving me alone. He’s the best friend I have ever had.
He’s the one person that truly knows and understands me. We can talk about anything or laugh about the most irreverant and retarded things. Just being around him makes me happier, and when he’s in a bad mood, it brings me down too. Can you understand the depth of my devotion? It borders on stalking.
He’s talented, beautiful, warm and solid, and I hate his fucking guts for leaving me here.
Being one of the OP of the links Rilchiam linked to, I completely understand what you’re going through. It really sucks to lose someone you can really talk to.
All I can say is “WA-A-A-A-A-H”! I can indeed understand the depth of your devotion.
But if he’s truly all you describe, he’s feeling “WA-A-A-A-A-AH” because he’s leaving you.
There are lots of ways to stay connected, when both parties want that. Sure, it’s a suckingly pale substitute for being in each other’s presence, but one does what one can.
I know he probably feels a little “WA-A-A-A-A-AH”, but he finally gets to move away and do what he wants, so I doubt he’s as broken up as myself. I’ve also long since accepted that I love him more than he loves me, and that’s where some of the bitterness comes from, the fact that he’ll be away having fun and not thinking of ME. Ack, I’m just being selfish, I should be happy, but alas, I cannot. I want him to stay here.
As a man, I’m in a bad position and I pray it will work, but I am so fucked up. I think about her often. Our loves linger and are everpresent. Men can’t forget love and beauty any more than a woman…you…worry not for you are loved.