I have a great job, as a primary care doc and medical director of a busy clinic. I work hard, but I wouldn’t say I’m overworked–maybe 50 hours a week. I’m also on call just about all the time, and I get called a lot but I rarely have to go in after hours.
The problem is that I have a hard time taking things in stride. There are lots of irritations through my day–difficult patients, staff asking me to do six things at once, charts that stack up. Every now and then, I’ll have a week or two when everything just seems to pile up, and every little thing gets on my last nerve. I’ve done everything I can to solve the problems that really get on my nerves, but only so much can be done.
The other problem is that once I get irritated, I am absolutely terrible at hiding it. I’m short with the staff, who for the most part are great people and hard workers. I have a hard time focusing on what I do (which is usually hard enough, with the ADHD), which means stuff backs up, giving me something else to be aggravated about. Rarely, I let my irritation show around patients or other visitors to the clinic, and then I feel like crap for being so unprofessional.
Has anyone else had this problem? What can I do about it?