I’ve never done ecstasy… Hated cocaine the couple times I tried it… Years ago when I was given benzos by a doctor, I noticed how much my life improved being able to sleep 8 hours a majority of the time, but also knowing that at the end of the day, no matter how stressed I was, I could relax – it was like a reward for enduring the day. I also noticed my colon spasms go away. I used to be in tremendous pain especially when I smoked pot, which I used to enjoy because it enhanced whatever I was doing. I love to laugh, and that would help, but that was more of a replacement for alcohol/cigarettes… When I had an injury, I first took an opiate, and it was wonderful, but not as wonderful as shrooms + opiates… I haven’t had a feeling that great, and that was years ago… One of the great activities I did was go chat on AOL and take LSD… I’d only do it if a certain friend or two of mine were there to parody, engage in stream-of-consciousness, free associating with whatever was being said in the room, distorting it in a humorous way to make it palatable to the discussion, add a little inside-humor from years of chatting, it was quite fun, but the person made the place. I did trip a few times without him there, and it wasn’t quite the same, but my brain worked better at what I did. I would write, learn, observe – it was never like getting drunk, which was very short-lived for me, with the exception of international travel… I don’t know why I didn’t like drinking in the US, and my speculation would be way too long.
I’m an uncle, it’s exciting, but also scary, but I also can’t compare that to having my own child, not only because I’m not a father, but I had nothing to do with being an uncle. I have no say how they live, but its nice to watch them grow, learn, and especially when they laugh. I think they are hard to compare, but I also think people who are on drugs love it because it’s the present, as opposed to trying to enjoy a moment that happened in the past.
For me, discovering great music, movies, stand-up comedy (as well as interviews of the aforementioned) gives me my pleasure. I don’t get it from anywhere else… Today, when I saw a Mort Sahl upload on YouTube, I was SO happy (they are rare), and depending on the length and quality, it gives me a ton of pleasure, but its quite different, and probably not as strong as … whatever one likes to take.
I started a topic months ago, about Female Vocalists fronting 70s prog-rock, and someone mentioned Curved Air (I only had one song at the time), and months later after expanding that band (finding what I liked throughout their discography) and checking out her solo stuff, I still have this amazing feeling, and I love to share with others, and did specifically yesterday on a lon car ride… When my cousin got joy after getting into the music, I had a ton of joy… Impossible to compare, although drugs are short-lived, while certain loves of mine can last decades… the great stuff you don’t get sick of.