I saw that my old high school was listed on one of those sites that has pictures of the faculty and the students and promises you can get in touch with the students who attended there.
Well, It’s been close to 50 years since I graduated high school and I was surprised by some of my reactions when I visited that site.
First of all, the site was about 90 percent incomplete. Only about ten percent of the students submitted current pictures and wrote a sentence or two about what they are doing. After checking who did that, I came to the conclusion that most of the best looking and popular kids did that. I guess the reason is because they were always used to everyone admiring them and they wanted to relive those feelings. But by far, the vast majority of those who posted a current picture or wrote a sentence or two about what happened to them after high school were the kids that no one liked and no one would talk to. They were the outcasts and I suppose that experience scarred them so bad that they are still desperately trying to make friends.
The important thing I noticed was that none of the successful people posted anything. It’s like they moved on and just never looked back. They don’t care at all about reunions or their 50 year-old high school memories.
But the reason I posted this thread is because of one girl who was a year ahead of me. I’ll call her Jennifer. She was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen in the high school or anywhere else. She was 16 and I was 15. She had beautiful blonde hair and blue eyes. Her eyes were so beautiful that I stole a picture of her from the time she won the Princess of the junior prom and the Queen of the senior prom. In the past 50 years I had thought about her several times and wondered who she married and what she did. After all, she was the most beautiful girl in the world and I imagined she surely would have done great things.
Well, she did leave a note about herself and apparently, she lived a very ordinary life. But the biggest shock was the picture she left. I won’t post it here because that would be an invasion of her privacy, even though I’m sure no one here knows her and no one would ever associate the beautiful 16 year old girl with the picture of the 65 year old lady.
Do you know who Judy Dench is? Well, the picture she posted was very similar to Judy Dench. No one would ever look at that lady and think anything about her being attractive.
I guess it was a real letdown for me. I don’t know why I would have expected anything different. Any lady would have to look very different at age 65 than she looked as a girl of 15.
But it was as if my memory of her was completely shattered and never again will I be able to think back about that beautiful girl and have any kind of fond memories about her.
They say, “You can never go back home again”. I guess I found out a little bit what that means today. It was very sad. I feel like crying.