I feel almost like a completely different person than I was a year ago. I look forward to work when I get up in the morning. The people at work are the best I’ve ever worked with, not a mean spirit among them. Occasionally, I even get hugged. I feel secure and needed and useful. And it’s the highest paying job I’ve ever had, and I basically set my own agenda.
I inherited some money and paid off all my debts. I haven’t been entirely debt free since I was 18, and I’m 43 now. I have a beautiful new new home (my thread with pics here). At the end of the work day, I look forward to going home. I spend a half-hour in the pool and hot tub every day, rain or shine(unless there’s lightning), after work. I have stopped smoking (50 days now). I have enough large bookshelves that for the first time ever I can store my harcovers and paperbacks on the same shelf. Every night I listen to at least an hour of music.
I have a beautiful new piece of art to contemplate. I spent two evenings just studying it, and then I decided it needed to be better lit, which I did, and was stunned and impressed that the lighting made an enormous improvement over what I already thought was beautiful.
Even my cat is healthier. She has a severe alergy to something, but after a couple of months in a new environment, her fur is groing back over the bare patches where she scratched herself hairless.
Somehow it’s just all come together for me. I wish I could say I worked for and planned this out. But, as with most good things in my life, I basically stumbled into it. About the only specific thing I did was apply for a new job at a new employer, when my boss at my old job had basically given me the kiss of death as far as a future with that company (something that completely blindsided me, and sent me tumbling into a depression for months).
I’m sure there were times in my early childhood when I was happier at the moment then I have been for the last several months. I’m sure that I could be happier still, in terms of relationships with others.
But I’ll take this for now. 