I’ve been emotional all week, but I’m watching the kids reading the names of the people who died on Sept. 11. I was feeling sad until I saw one of the girls voice crack when reading her father’s name. Now, I’m just crying my eyes out.
That’s on at 6 AM? I guess it would be… today is an emotional day, and what you’ve described is very sad indeed.
My eyes are dry, it’s just that I can’t sleep for some reason. Went to bed at 1:35 AM, sort of slept for a while, then couldn’t sleep. Finally woke up at 4:20 AM after deciding it wouldn’t be worth it to try to sleep when I couldn’t. Maybe later on, I’ll be able to sleep.
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You’re not the only one today, dragongirl. I’m vacillating between trying to accept it and finding other things to distract me. I even considered going to a church today to have some quiet time to reflect on this. I think I’ll opt for a park instead, it seems more optimistic somehow.
It started at about 8:45 here.
It’s a little fucked up, I want to just turn it off, but I can’t make myself change the channel.
I’m starting to feel this way and know I won’t have dry eyes while driving around today.
I’ve been a weepy weepy person for quite a while. (I had a MPSIMS thread about it a little over a week ago.) I think that this anniversary had a lot to do with it.
I’ve ordered flowers sent to my friend Moira’s family today, I know that they’re having it much, much worse than I. I lost a friend I knew for three years, they lost a beautiful, brave woman that they’d known a lifetime.
The kids at GZ couldn’t make me cry, (even the one who tried to double back and stage-whispered to his brother “I messed that name up, I have to read it right!”) because I was already crying, and probably will be for another hour or so.
There is an organization trying to make today a national day of service in memory of those who lost their lives today, especially those who died while trying to come to the aid of others. It’s a non-partisan, non-sectarian, group, and they’re still accepting confidential, non-binding pledges from people as to what they will do today to help someone in need. I think that it is the best way imaginable to deal with this day. If I could do anything, I certainly would, for Moira, for the FDNY, NY/NJ PA officers, NYPD, for the heroes of Flight 93, and for everyone.
If you can do something, will you?
Folks please stop by my thread in IMHO. I started it on Monday and it has grown immensly as a reflection of today. It is full of short vignettes from various dopers wanting to vent, reflect, cry, laugh but most importantly to remember those 3016 people who died.
I am writing a special essay today for the newspaper. I may post it on that thread. Luckily my TA’s are teaching today…I may drop by for some reassurance.
You aren’t alone… I have been on the verge of tears all morning. Trying to work but not getting much done. We had a moment of silence at 8:30am and the saddest thing was that no one around me even paused in what they were doing. They all kept talking and going about their business. Are they all forgetting? Don’t they feel the pain?
It’s an emotional day. I think we need to remember those who died, and celebrate their life by moving on, but not forgetting.
So, yes, I’m torn, but I think it’s necessary.
dragongirl, just cry. Let it all out.
Cry for the dead.
Cry for those who lost a loved one.
Cry for the wars it brought on.
Cry for lost innocence.
Cry for the terrorized.
Cry for the precious things that were lost.
Cry for the firemen.
Cry for the policemen.
Cry for the soliders.
Cry and cry and cry.
No matter how hard you try, you will stop crying sometime. You’ll stop when you are ready to stop crying. Till then, let your tears flow.
Peace and Love,
Zebra
I haven’t turned on the tv today and I don’t plan to. I have enough emotional problems all on my own.
Just a plug for the Kitchen Sisters’ (of NPR’s Lost & Found Sound) Memorial in Sound.
I listened to it this time last year, and had a good cathartic cry out of it. I found it to be much more human than your average memorial program-- it focuses on the minutiae of life in and around the WTC.
The BBC has a Realaudio version online.
Those who don’t do Realplayer, (and have the bandwidth,) can drop me an e-mail and I’ll send you a 16 MB .mp3 version.
It’s perfectly OK to cry–as others have said, it’s the anniversary of an enormously sad event. My sorrow has been lightened today by the announcement that two of my good friends have gotten engaged, and I thought today was particularly fitting for it. We need the reminders that life does and will go on, in spite of everything.
I’ve been weepy all week long, off and on.
I just feel out of sorts today. Hard to describe how I’m feeling exactly. Just not right…if that makes any sense.