I’ve had diabetes since I was a baby. Generally successful in staying on my diet and keeping my glucose balanced.
Except during puberty and now. All my safeguards are in place and working.
I’m chained to the dialysis vampire 3 times a week.
My biggest issue, a brain fog/dementia is setting in. I’m at least confused once a week. I’m sleepy headed at least twice a week.
I’ve had a very nasty hiccup lately and got into trouble about it.
I think I hurt someones feelings.
No, I know I did. I can’t push Pandora back in the box.
I think I’ve said it before on here, if anyone senses or sees I’m off my rail please report me to a mod, and ask I be shut down for awhile.
If it turns out it’s not happening I’ll forgive you I promise. I’d rather not hurt anyone on the board.
Peeps, this is a scary time in my life.
My friend I hurt may never forgive me. I cannot stand the idea of hurting a few 100 or 1 here on the Dope.
I need your help in this.
Any mod reading this, I hope it’s ok to ask for help like this. Don’t be afraid to shut me down if asked to. I won’t mind at all.
Thx, my friends. Thx so much.
I enjoy this place so much. It keeps me sorta sane.
I laugh at/with and cry for and care about each and every one of you.
I love you, Beck. Don’t ever forget that! Even if you get confused as to which shoe goes on what foot, keep knowing that I love you.
I’ve got a birthday coming up. And I’m thinking, “Well, shit, how did I get so old?” I have my moments of forgetfulness. Most are due to my pain control medications. I don’t really care what the cause is, I used to be so proud of my memory, and I hate it when I can’t think of that one word, or I can’t remember if I put two spoons or three spoons of something in that recipe.
I gotta count blessings, though. Our kids are the best. Each one would drop everything in a heartbeat to help us with anything. And that help comes with love, not complaint.
From the way you have shown us your family, Beck, I think your kids are the same way.
@VOW, you give me so much hope.
Thank you, friend.
I love you as well. P.S. I’m half way thru your box of puzzles. It’s been great having them right in my bedroom.
@burpo_the_wonder_mutt - you described exactly how I feel.
One thing that happens is I have a chore or some normal thing to do. I get up and go to take care of the issue and dammit I lose it, in the brain fog. So maddening.
I’ve started writing on post-it notes. And sticking them on my shirt. It’s a goofy way to do it. Clumsy as it is!
Post-it notes are allover the house.
Wait-. Excuse me:
I gotta write a post-it note to remember to pick-up all those yellow squares around the house.
There was a guy named Ray Rayner, who hosted a kids’ morning TV show on WGN in Chicago in the 1960s and 1970s. He wore jumpsuits (custom made for him, IIRC), and he always had notes pinned on his jumpsuits, to remind him of things to be done during the show (since these were the days before Post-It notes ).
You can see a couple of the notes in this picture of him:
I have chemo induced brain fog, but I had always been in the habit of using a mise en place when cooking all the time, so it makes keeping things sorted while cooking easier.
And isn’t one of the things moderators can do with accounts is put them on mod approval for posting? It seems like if someone lets the mods know you have gone wonky they can put you on monitoring?
I could keep right on loving my mother. I can keep right on liking you.
– Also: talk to your doctors. Is it possible that at least some of this is some sort of medication reaction? And have them check whether you’ve got any unrecognized infections.
The SDMB has the best mods on the internet. Really…not sucking-up. Lord knows I have tested their patience more than once but they refrained from sending a hit squad after me.
Best wishes @Beckdawrek. Hang in there. Keep posting.
My Doctor knows. He is the one who recognized it.
My family just thinks I’m crackers anyway.
They’re very watchful now.
The Lil’Wrekker says I’m on “Stoopid watch”
She’s recently transfered her all her education stuff to a more local university. Her and BF are living here. I suspect her Dad requested they move back, she won’t say tho’.
I’m counting… I have 5 adults babysitting me and 4 grandkids who have been know to go get a Mom if I’m acting really weird.
Plus all my pets are alarmist.
The brain fog scares me, I won’t deny it. I just hate the idea of losing intellectual ability.
I don’t want to burden everyone,with this.
I don’t feel I have much choice.
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