Thanks, AndYrAStar, I need all the love I can get, all the people I depended on have their own little things and I guess I’m out on my own in the world for once. It hurts and it’s scary, thanks for helping make it a little easier.
Kitty
okay, I don’t know what I did to make that winking face-thing, but I didn’t mean to, because this is a serious thing. just to let you know…
I know exactly what you mean, Kitty. BTW I checked your info and got your AIM name but you’re not online, so if you want to talk (whining to strangers is fun), sign on and I’ll IM you.
I’m so sorry Gadarene.
(I wish there was more I could say)
-Pandora
{{{{{Gadarene}}}}}
I feel I should clarify. It ended up being the distance rather than the ex; she didn’t feel that she had the level of commitment needed for us to stay together while on opposite coasts (as will probably happen next fall). I’d been coming to a similar conclusion, and was resigned to the relationship eventually ending…for it to happen now, though, hurt a lot.
She’s still in love with me, and I with her, and there’s (strangely?) no acrimony on either side. She just won’t be coming up in two weeks, leaving me with a ticket paid for and unused. (Okay, the ticket doesn’t bother me so much as the fact that I was really looking forward to seeing her, and it makes me sad to know we won’t be doing all the things we planned on while she was here.) She does, however, want to stay close, and to see me again–she wants me to come down and visit her for spring break or her commencement! I’ll have to take a wait-and-see approach with that one.
Dunno; boils down to me being confused about why she chose to break it off so preemptively…especially considering that she says she’s not interested in a relationship with anyone else, and in fact would like to reassess things when she’s getting ready to leave the West Coast herself (probably after I’ve finished my first year of law school). I liked the relationship, long-distance and transitory though it was; I don’t have many friends here at all, and it was nice to have someone who knew me so well and with whom I could share my thoughts.
And I’m sharing my thoughts now, for what it’s worth.