I Need Cheering Up - Job Related

Miscellaneous and Personal Stuff I Must Share
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For a very long time, I was unemployed and on disability. Then, I got a part time job as a contractor for unemployment. While at first I was thrilled at the thought of helping people. Then, I realized I couldn’t help them. All I could do was generate a ticket. I came to dread work everyday. Then, the contract ended. The company asked if I wanted another job, a full time one. I said yes.

The new contract involved working with veterans and people in the armed forces. I actually could help people. I had some wonderful moments. But, I constantly worried that I would be fired for not being good enough.

Those fears were justified. I was removed from the contract last Fridar for low quality control scores. Today, as instructed, I mailed back my Common Access Card. A CAC is a kind of key used to access secure computers or sites. I had to undergo a security screening (a minor, low level screening to be sure) to get a CAC. I miss it very much.

I’ve screwed up once again and feel like crying.

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Hang in there, and never give up on yourself. Mistakes were made, but no lives were lost.

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Awww! I feel like giving you a hug. :people_hugging:

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A friend of mine once said “You cannot fail as long as you learned something.” Perhaps this job was not a good fit for you. It’s OK to mourn the loss of any job but don’t despair, you have a lot to offer and you will find a better fit. Be gentle on yourself.

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Thanks, to all of you ETA Somebody snuck in while I was typing.

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For a long time, I attended a day program for the mentally hilarious. I still go four times a month. Today, I met with my case manager. She pointed out that the company I work for chose to assign me to another project rather than letting me go altogether. I hadn’t thought of that and it softens the blow quite a bit.