I think I may have lost my only guy friend

[bucketybuck]

@April_R

Wrote this today. Never going to show guy friend. Also destroyed the hard copy already.
It’s total stream of consciousness so nitpick away. It just felt good to write it out
"I don’t love you. I have love in my life. I don’t need love. I don’t love you. I actually hate you.

I hate you for getting me. I hate you for being honest and open and telling me things about you that would make most people run. I hate that I don’t want to run.

I don’t love you. I am certain you would find me physically repulsive so I dread you touching me. I hate that I think about you touching me. I think about it all the time.

I don’t love you. I love my husband. I love my family. I love my life. I hate that you make me question my contentment, like happiness is not enough. I hate that I crave your misery.

I hate that you have awakened feelings in me I thought I had banished a lifetime ago. Feelings I thought I had grown out of. Passions lost in time, you revived them from the dust, and I hate you for it.

I don’t love you, because this is more than love. I hate I can’t define this. I hate that our connection goes beyond superficial looks, money, or interests and instead lives in another dimension.

I hate all this, but above all I hate that I don’t really hate you"

Man, that’s some emo bullshit

You’re just wallowing in this shit aren’t you? That sweet sweet drama!

[QuickSilver]

You’ve over-shared. Research, Histrionic Personality Disorder, then seek some therapy. Good luck.

[April_R]

@QuickSilver

You’ve over-shared. Research, Histrionic Personality Disorder, then seek some therapy. Good luck.

Holy crap. I mean doesn’t describe me exactly, but holy crap.

[April_R]

This article was fabulous as well
http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5909882

[Green_Bean]

@Penfeather

Crimson and clover, over and over? Cos that was Tommy James and the Shondells.

Naw, see April’s post. She got it in one.

She was wrong in her notion that it was the nature of the sentiment that was similar, however.

[QuickSilver]

@April_R

This article was fabulous as well
http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5909882

Only to the extent that it excuses the behaviour.

[Emiliana]

@April_R

Holy crap. I mean doesn’t describe me exactly, but holy crap.

Great. Now you can revel in it. It’s not your fault, it’s just you! Can we have a rousing chorus of Born This Way?

[DummyGladHands]

@Emiliana

You’re acting like a not particularly mature 14 year old and you have three children! If you absolutely insist on having a major life meltdown, I can’t imagine why you want to do it on the fricking internet. See a therapist for heaven’s sake before you screw up a bunch of lives.

This.

[Hentor_the_Barbarian]

@April_R

This article was fabulous as well
http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5909882

Well, up until the point that it takes a very common, banal experience (wanting to be desired, becoming infatuated) and ties it into some total bullshit about love and pushing away love.

[Fenris]

@Green_Bean

Joan Jett called. She wants her lyrics back.

You mean “Billy and the Boingers” called.

U Stink But I U

[April_R]

@Emiliana

Great. Now you can revel in it. It’s not your fault, it’s just you! Can we have a rousing chorus of Born This Way?

Didn’t say that at all. You’re butter and a little amusing.

[Omar_Little]

@April_R

You’re butter

In the stick form or spreadable?

[April_R]

Bitter. Bitter. Dang failure to check before sending.

[Inna_Minnit]

Butter is better.

[Happy_Lendervedder]

But bacon is the best.

[Emiliana]

@April_R

Didn’t say that at all. You’re butter and a little amusing.

Bitter about what? I’m happy to be a source of amusement since it seems like you could use some.

I hate to see people fucking with their kids’ lives, especially in such a juvenile fashion. And I think you’re very, very foolish to be posting about all of this. Truly, therapy is the place to work it out.

[Drunky_Smurf]

@Happy_Lendervedder

But bacon is the best.

Bacon butter.

[dropzone]

Y’see, I’ve grown bored with bacon (and this thread). But I’ll never tire of bread and butter.

[handsomeharry]

@April_R

@handsomeharry
I don’t drink, so yeah. You seem to have a very dank view of women in general, but your view is pretty understandable and culturally consistent.
@Napier
Thanks for that perspective.
@enipla
It is definitely worth cooling.the flirty flirts, he is a very interesting person and in know I at least would have plenty to talk.about without the other BS

To quote Hamlet:
“Lay not that flattering unction to your soul,
That not your trespass, but my madness speaks.”

[Sparky812]

I can’t believe it’s not butter!