Title says it all.
Ok not PERSONALY kill them, for one thing that would be icky and inefficent.
Which is, err, well the exact opposite of what I am aiming to fight for.
First off some history;
I used to not mind drugies. You know, to each their own right?
Sure nice nice, great theory and all.
And also complete and utter bullshit.
First off there are the piss ant annoying druggies who insist on coming to classes f*cked up beyond all belief.
Hey buddy, STOP HANGING OUT OF THE DAMN WINDOW.
Annnyways. Those types get annoying fast.
As do the ones who go around and beat on random people sending them to the hospital.
That sucks.
Then there are the inadvertent children of the drug users, in case you have not noticed yet, drugs can tend to lower inhabitions a wee bit.
Seen way to many children screwed up to hell by that one sheer consequence alone.
Then there is the pure financial cost of drugs.
<i>WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING?</i>
I remember talking to vegitarians hunters.
Basicaly they where opposed to eating me, but they still hunted.
So they would go out, shoot the animal, and just leave it there.
It is called being self centered. They took that action PURELY for the sake of themselves. They liked to kill things so they killed things.
That they were a vegitarian just added the extra bit of irony into the situation and helped cement my belief that middle class Americans have an amazing tendity towards being fuckwads.
Drugs are another pure self indulgence. And not a very efficent one at that.
Don’t get me wrong, I realize that people have to relax some how, obviously going nut ass end crazy and starting to shoot people is not a good idea, and hell even general depression sucks.
So yah, people need to relax.
Let me tell ya something, I also get pissed off at people who whine moan bitch and complain that they only got to take one vacation to disney land this year instead of two.
Well fuck-itty-do-da. Screw you too. I mean they get darned depressed about this! They actualy expect <i>sympathy</i> that they were not able to afford to go <i>twice</i> in one year to someplace that I haev never been in my entire life!
As I said, a gigantic tendicy towards producing fuckwads.
But yah, back to the drugs thing.
Drugs are a costly way of relaxing. Besides having zero potential self growth value.
Alright I apologize an other sidetrack here.
No drugs <i>do not</i> make you more creative, they do NOT open up your mind. They can fuck with your sensory inputs and make you ‘feel’ more aware’ but that is it.
I remember reading the other day on some weblog what one dude wrote. Paraphrasing to hell here folks.
"Felt great, made me feel that I knew it all, that stuff I could never grasp before I would be able to understand
And that is why I will never do drugs again, it scares me that they made me believe in something that I had no other innequovible* proof for, that they were able to make me believe in something unconditionaly with complete and utter faith."
You don’t understand the meaning of the world when you do drugs, fuck, you get a big ass chemical rush that tells your brain that you understand the meaning of the world.
Called delusion.
Now I am not going to deny that the occasional assfreak is able to improve their math abilities or whatever by using a drug of their choice, but hell;
all that does is force them to use an artifical tap into something that if they trained their brain right, their brain would be able to do by itself. Without the need for artificial drugs.
Wimped out, never learned to walk, just to use a crutch.
Hell I used to be able to do rather compelx arithmatic and algebra in my head, damned if I can any more though, got spoiled by my calculator.
Amazing what I find myself able to do if I go cold turkey from my calculator for awhile and just do things by hand. Who the hell says you need a table to do logs? Fuck I’ve done’em mentaly, not to too high of a level of accuracy, but shit, something that my brain CAN do.
Your mind can do a lot, don’t think you need drugs to do it. Drugs just limit you by forcing you to go through a gate to get to your mind’s natural abilities.
Not to mention that if your creative spurt only lasts as long as your drug does then you are going to be fucked if it ever comes to some longer projects.
Can you imagine Mozart having to have needed LSD or Acid to compose? Fuck, might’ve been good work, but it would’ve been damn short work with not nearly the same amount of careful thought and planning and beauty and love put into it that really was.
Ok end this side track.
As I was saying, illegal drugs have no benifical value (pot smoking for pain relief doesn’t count, you don’t want to get high when using pot for pain relief, there is a fucking difference and maybe I should say drug abusers, but fuck it, if you have to ask then you don’t f*cking qualify for exemption) outside of being a rather expensive way to relax your ass or have a possibly good time.
Or not, shit goes wrong all the time. Not like drug trips are always perfect.
Then again people also brag about how much damn fun it was to get drunk and then puke their guts out.
Have I mentioned about the fuckwads that America manages to produce yet? Yes? Well consider them mentioned again. (penchant for self pain is another topic though. . . .)
But once again back to drugs.
You spend money on them, you get high, you are left the same as you were a few minutes to hours ago, but with less cash.
Kind of like going to the library, except that with drugs you don’t learn anything and it costs you money.
I remember a stoner in one of my math classes bitching about how I never had to study for tests and that I always got shit right on them.
Well no shit, I did study, I just did not need to cram right before the test or hell even pay much attention in class (though I was, yah so my heads down, why the fuck should I feel inclined to keep my head up, so I can look at your ugly face? No thank you) since I bothered to read this little thing called the book.
Yah I read the book, while the stoner (disclaimer; Not a real stoner, real stoners aren’t all that bad and tend to be kick ass people to hang out with from time to time. A real stoner would have kicked this guy’s sorry ass. ) was busy being popular as he could be and fucking white trash girls while injesting narcotics of his choice I was reading the damn book.
So I got a good grades on the tests.
Big surfuckingprise folks.
As I said, drugs waste your time and your money.
Which eventualy NOW comes down to why I want to kill the little muppet fuckers.
You see there are people in this world who have shitty ass lives. Now while I have grew up in a family that spent a good part of its time below the poverty line (fuck both parents AND my 70+ yr old Grandmother worked their asses off, if you believe that if somebody works hard enough that they will eventualy get ahead, well now then, fuck you and your fucking dream buddy, fuck it in the ass cuz it is wrong. ) we always had plenty to eat and never had to worry about shit to bad happening to use, no crack houses on our block (2 blocks down, yes, but not on /our/ block) so all was fine. Not to bad of a neighborhood, only the occasional shooting, and my Father is Union and his Union has kick ass insurance. Amen for Unions.
Well the general idea is that I stopped wallowing in self grief awhile back after I realized how much piss poor good it was going to do me (hint: none) and saw how horribly fucked up other’s lives were compared to mine.
And you see THAT is why drug users piss me off.
Because people in this world who could really use help aren’t getting it while some damn druggie is getting high because they are too damn lazy or fucking worthless to open up their damn math book and study instead.
Yah that is right, I subscripe to the “if there is something f*cking good you can do in this world then you should <i>better as sure damn hell do it</i>” philosphy. Any asswad who does not feel at <i>least</i> sympathy for another person in pain ain’t an asswad who I want around on this earth for very much longer. Far as I am concerned they ain’t human and are just another piece of self-asorbed stuck up egotistical self-centric trash who should be thrown out to save oxygen.
Now this is coming from somebody who was raised to believe in more then just sympathy for others and went all the damn way up to empathy. Which just totaly fucking sucks let me tell ya. You ain’t been pissed at the world until you break down into tears upon see’in another person suffering cuz you can actualy feel their damn pain in your soul. It ain’t nothing mystical to it, just feeling what another goes through and realizing how much hurt it is causing them and actualy caring about them and how they feel. Sympathy is when ya see something bad has happened to somebody and ya know you are supposed to feel bad about it so ya feel bad about it, empathy is when ya see somebody hurting and you start hurting right along with 'em at least in your soul**.
So now I see these people suffering everywheres I go, I see people who need help and people who are struggling to survive then I see some dipshit light up drugs in a few seconds worth more then that strugglin person is likely to see in a month.
And yah this may be a capitolistic free for all don’t gotta give a fuck society where indeed technicaly you can be a self absorbed dickwad who doesn’t give a fuck about anybody but yourself, but then hell damnit, that is takin things to the letter of the law and sure as hell not the damn spirit. We’re supposed to be getting togther to help one another out not indulging in self gratifying fantasies while waiting nearbye some poor slump suffers to death.
Yah I want to kill the damn druggies. For the same near related reasons that I want to strangle the living shit out of people who beat on dogs or cats.
Because it is giving a fuck about nobody but yourself and not caring about others, fuck no it ain’t even that.
It is not being able to give a fuck about others and being so damn thinking about yourself that you cannot even understand what another person is feeling. Fuck that, just wrong. Yah its the letter of the law, yah sure you don’t technicaly need to give a fuck, but then again there is something called being human and it is more then just your damn blood relatives. It is why any damn decent solidure on killing their first enemy face to face ends up puking their guts out, it is respect for fucking life man. It is respect for more then life, it is knowing what the fuck goes on all around yah and knowing what the hell is happening with ya. It is finding meaning so you aren’t such a nihalistic asshole, or whatever lack of be-fucking-lief that you believe in; don’t care if your christian or whatever else may be ya, if your sitting there smoking pot or dropping tabs, odds are you haven’t found the fucking meaning of life yet man, and you need to seriously consider thinking about it some more with a clear head this time around.
But hey I am sick and fucking tired of waiting for your ass to come to a realization that there is more to this world then you, and quite frankly while you are sitting on your ass a damn good deal lot of people could be helped with the resources you are throwing away. I don’t give a fuck if they are yours to throw away, nobody worth a damn should be lettin another suffer at their own expense. (and fuck all you who say I am doing the same. No I don’t buy shoddy ass nike shoes, I buy nice thick ass leather boots that last at least a year at a time and are strong and sturdy and functional. I don’t even drive a car, I listen to royalty free non-RIAA music, use tons of homemade bedding, repair lots of shit instead of buying replacements, recycle to hell, you wouldn’t believe the large amounts of stuff I recycle, and I even built my own computer table slash desk. I may not be perfect but at least I aim to not go around wasting money, I don’t ski I don’t party I don’t drink I don’t smoke and I don’t do drugs. Sure as hell don’t play golf either. Do read a lot).
No I can’t point your ass to any studies that show you should be helping other people, but once again hey if you gotta ask then fuck you.
Apologies for the shitty ass shoddy language of this message, knew when I started that it was too late to be starting an epic like this, and I gotta leave and this point so I don’t even get to defend myself in this (hey normaly fun to stay up all night and all but. . . . )
Ah now if you will excuse me I realized about 5 minutes ago that I have a resume I gotta have ready by tomarrow (awww fuck) and likely should start cleaning up my grammerical styling to prepare for the writting.
(actualy just some revision work needs to be done).
And no way am I spellchecking this. Spellcheck.net only does 5,000 characters at once (or is it 50,000? Either way this is way over the limit.)
*Spelling is screwed up, err, should sound alike.
** insert your own fucking higher level of concinessness here. Don’t give a shit what your own personal philosophy is, just all semantics and words anyways.
