First off, I want to say that I truly do enjoy what I do for the most part.My boss is very supportive, the pay is decent, my benefits are good, & I have a lot of flexibility with my schedule. However I’ve been feeling the strain lately since this is a sales job, & I have numbers and goals that I have to meet on a monthly and quarterly basis. We recently had a major client pull out of a contract with us and sign up with another service provider, and as a result four sales representatives were let go. I feel that my position with this company, since I am the sales representative with the least amount of experience, is extremely tentative and I hate having that job insecurity. I also have family responsibilities with two 5 year olds, a husband who is a full-time pharmacy student, & a newborn baby. What I really want to do right now its just be able to stay home and get my home in order, my kids taken care of, and not have to worry about the being the one bringing home the bacon every freaking day. I know I’m terribly lucky to have a job in this economy, even though I have a masters degree and could be getting paid more if I was lucky enough to find a job in my field , this job was a godsend. I’m just feeling overwhelmed that basically the responsibility for making the money to keep us financially a float is all on my shoulders. I can’t wait till my husband graduates and I can either go down to part time or volunteer in the field I really want to work in. Working as a sales representative is a pretty soul-sucking job. Sometimes I feel like a used car salesman.
I’m so sorry honey. How long until your husband finishes school?
This May! Then he goes through the process of finding a residency. He starts this October using a central application process, which matches the applicant with the hospitals he marks as his preferred locations and then the hospitals contact the applicants they mark as preferred. Then interviews for the residencies are typically in February, and you know by July or August which hospitals are offering you a resident position. Then we have to figure out if we can afford to move to wherever he is matched. My head is spinning, because I need to keep this job (or heaven forbid if I loose this job because of cutbacks I will need to find another one with steady income and benefits) until at least after his first year of residency since most residency do not offer medical benefits and he will be getting only 50% of his normal salary. So I need to still keep a job for financial and practical reasons.
I am also trying to encourage him to stay in this area when picking the hospitals he prefers to apply to so we won’t have to pay to move, but knowing him, if he sees an incredible opportunity half way across the country, it would be impossible to talk him out of it and we would have to find a way to make it work. He has supported me through school and chasing my dreams, so now it is my turn.
Once he is graduated, through his residency (1-2 years depending on what he chooses to specialize in), and has a steady full time position somewhere I can finally breathe a sigh of relief, but until then I am on pins a needles constantly about our finances and about my job security 
Is anyone else feeling this way right now? Or am I the only one!
I don’t mind my job. There are days I have to push myself to log in and get to work but for the most part I like it.
I’ve had bad jobs in the past so I understand.