Thank you for telling us about your beautiful daughter, I will be thinking about you all.
Beautiful post. I, too, am deeply sorry for your loss.
My oldest brother’s picture is up on the wall with the rest of my sibs. He died when he was 3 (long before I was born). I never met him, but I am glad he is not forgotten. I’m sure your family and other children-to-be will be similarly glad. Best wishes for as much healing as such losses permit.
Beautiful post. I, too, am deeply sorry for your loss.
My oldest brother’s picture is up on the wall with the rest of my sibs. He died when he was 3 (long before I was born). I never met him, but I am glad he is not forgotten. I’m sure your family and other children-to-be will be similarly glad. Best wishes for as much healing as such losses permit.
Wow. I am sorry. 
I wish you strength - although, from your post, you appear to already have that.
May you always have the strength, compassion, love, and beauty you have shown in this post. I am so sorry.
{{{Buliwyf and family}}}
CJ
I think that losing a child could be the worst pain anyone would ever have to endure. My prayers are with you and your family. God bless you and your wife. Take care of each other.
Roadwalker.
This is truly an unforgettable and inspiring post. Thank you, and I am sorry.
Oh my. I’m stunned. I will never forget that post, or your courage.
I am so sorry for your loss. My deepest sympathy to you and your family.
hugs I’m sorry…
My younger sister, Patricia Meredith, was also stillborn. Had she survived, she’d be 14 or 15 now. One of my earliest memories is watching my mother cry and staring at all the people gathered in our living room around the time of the funeral. Even now, it still haunts me that I never knew my little sister. I think my parents have a picture of her, but I’ve never seen it. I don’t want to ask because I don’t want to hurt them. My surviving sister, Katie (nearly 13) also seems a bit haunted by her memory, but not as much as me. I’m her big sister. Oh gosh, I’m getting teary-eyed, so I’ll stop.
Anyway, I’m very sorry, and I wish the best for you and your family. May you be blessed with another child as soon as the pain fades.
Buliwyf, I’m so sorry. My son, Ambrose would have been 10 this past April had he lived. It gets easier with time but it still hurts forever. My email’s in my profile if I can help in any way.
Agentfroot, I’ve got photos of my son but my living sons have not seen them. They’re fairly brutal TBH but I would unhesitatingly show them to the boys if they asked. I was very touched the other day when my respite worker told me that P the Elder had told her he had an elder brother who died. I doubt it would hurt your parents although they probably will cry if you ask.
I have been fidgeting around this thread for a while now, wondering whether to post a reply or not. Somehow, it would have seemed too trite to just write that I felt sorrow for you and your family Buliwyf. Montana’s birth and death seemed far too important for me to post some easy platitudes about my sympathies for you and your wife. I cannot feel your pain. As much as I would like to be able to ease your sorrow, I cannot do that. I cannot begin to comprehend the confusion and the anger and the helplessness that you must be experiencing. I want to be able to kiss everything better and make it alright, but that is not possible. Sometimes life just sucks. No bones about it…sometimes there is no rhyme or reason…it just stinks, and Montana’s death is one of those times. I’m sorry.
But what came through so clearly in your writing was your sheer joyousness that your daughter was born, and rightfully so! She will always be part of your family, and while the painful memories of her death might fade, the happiest ones of her short nine months will remain forever. While she may not have seen her mum and dad with her own eyes, she knew you more intimately than mere eyes can allow. She is your daughter, and there is nothing that can beat that.
Thankyou Buliwyf, and continue to rejoice in Montana’s life. And if it’s OK with you, I for one would love it if you could share some of that with us in the future as well…joy is infectious you know!
Buliwyf, you are right. A child is amazing and precious no matter how long they come to be physically in your life, as Montana will always be in your life. It’s so easy sometimes to be annoyed and frustrated with our children and to forget that every minute is a gift. Thank you for the reminder.
{{{{Buliwyf}}}}
I’m sorry for your troubles.
I can’t tell all of you how much your thoughts and prayers have meant to my wife and I. I especially appreciate those of you who shared your own stories. That means so very much to me. That my little girl could give you a reason to think about those children that maybe don’t get thought about enough. Thanks for that, thanks for everything.
Buliwyf
Sending warm thoughts your way.
Yaway’s blessings to you and oyur for a quick recovery and a most wonderull life filled with love, happiness and a biggole Family.
((((((HUGGLES)))))
Defintely tell your other children about your first daughter. I have an older brother that we never got to meet either, but I’m glad to know about him.
Hugs to your family.
Once again I’d like to thank everyone who contributed to this thread. We are still having trouble dealing with it and I apologize for the seeming lack of attention to this thread, but I promise you that I am reading everything you guys have to say and it IS helping. Alot. Thank you everyone. And Kambuckta, I understand what you’re saying, but I really don’t think it’s trite for the people to say they’re sorry to hear of my loss. Every time someone writes that, one more person has been touched by my little girl, see what I’m saying? Like I said I get your point but I do appreciate all responses. I’m finding lately that there are alot of people out there who really try to tell me how they’re feeling but just don’t know what to say. I will tell you this though, I’d rather hear " I’m so sorry for your loss," than, like the person I ran into today, “hey buddy, so what’ve you been up to lately? Enjoying your time off work?” This person attended Montana’s funeral so he knew what happened, however I am not angry with him because I know him and I know that he just hasn’t got the emotional tools to deal with what’s happened.
Anyway, this wasn’t to turn into a rant so I’ll stop there. One last thing to Kambuckta though, I will definitely let you all know how we’re doing. And someday when we’re ready, I will share the new little life we create. Montana’s sibling. He or she will never replace Montana, they will only join her, as a part of our family. Till later, thanks again all of you.
Buliwyf
Buliwyf, thank you for sharing such a touching part of your life. The beauty and eloquence of your post moved me to tears. As presumptuous as this may sound, I feel as though Montana really has touched my life. You and she have helped me begin to understand what my aunt and uncle went through not long ago. Thank you again for allowing me to be a part of your joy and your sorrow. My thoughts and prayers are with you.