The first round was successful, but only temporarily; I miscarried at 10 weeks.
We have 3 frozen embryos from each of the rounds, but I’m not sure we can afford the thawing-plus-medicine cost at this point. We’ve spent our downpayment-on-house money, cashed out Husband’s 401k, and borrowed to get to where we are now.
I’m not really sad, yet - alternating between numbness and cursing fate. I’ve known all along that this was a crapshoot, and so I’m not surprised that it came up snake eyes.
As for costs, especially medication, there are lots of people that donate their unused medication (check at your clinic), or sell it for a greatly reduced cost. PM me if you want the website for people who are selling stuff.
Well fuck. I was holding it together pretty well, then fucking Frank Sinatra comes up on the ipod.
We’re drinking my friend
To the end of a brief episode
Make it one for my baby
And one more for the road…
And I’m bawling at my desk. 40 minutes. 40 minutes.