I'm not pregnant.

Mundane Pointless Stuff I Must Share (MPSIMS)
#1

The second round of IVF has failed.

The first round was successful, but only temporarily; I miscarried at 10 weeks.

We have 3 frozen embryos from each of the rounds, but I’m not sure we can afford the thawing-plus-medicine cost at this point. We’ve spent our downpayment-on-house money, cashed out Husband’s 401k, and borrowed to get to where we are now.

I’m not really sad, yet - alternating between numbness and cursing fate. I’ve known all along that this was a crapshoot, and so I’m not surprised that it came up snake eyes.

Fuck.

#2

I’m so sorry. hugs

#3

I’m sorry, Maggie.

{{{{{Maggie}}}}}

#4

I’m sorry, too.

#5

I’m so sorry.

#6

I’m so sorry.

As for costs, especially medication, there are lots of people that donate their unused medication (check at your clinic), or sell it for a greatly reduced cost. PM me if you want the website for people who are selling stuff.

#7

I’m sorry, Maggie. Take care of yourself.

#8

By the way, I recommend against getting this sort of news at work, especially if you haven’t told your boss what you’ve been doing.

I would very much like to be elsewhere right now, but can’t leave for another 3 1/2 hours.

#9

I’m so sorry Maggie. I hope you get to feeling better soon. {{{HUGS}}}

#10

Try.
Hope.
Fail.
Cry.
Be numb.
Try.
Hope.
Fail.
Cry.
Be numb.
Try.
Hope.
Fail.
Cry.
Be numb.

I’m with you. I’m sorry.

#11

I’m so sorry. Hang in there.

#12

Aaaaaahhhhhh it’s never fun when you tryhopefailcrybenumb. That was pretty eloquent, wonderlust. Take care of yourself and each other, Ocelot.

#13

Well fuck. I was holding it together pretty well, then fucking Frank Sinatra comes up on the ipod.

We’re drinking my friend
To the end of a brief episode
Make it one for my baby
And one more for the road…
And I’m bawling at my desk. 40 minutes. 40 minutes.

#14

So sorry. I’ve been there, and to say that it sucks is a vast understatement.

#15

Sorry guys. Don’t mean to use y’all as an LJ, just not really anyone else I can talk to right now.

#16

You don’t have to apologize, Maggie. We’re glad to lend an ear.

#17

It’s okay, that’s what we are here for.

hugs

#18

Don’t ever say that! I really am so sorry.

#19

I’m sorry too. ~hugs~

#20

I’m sorry.