Nice. I’m sure if you look around at your local library, there’s quite a few books that can give you an idea of what you may be doing, if you get into that particuarly line of work.
I found this book to be exceptionally full of information. My ex-wife treated it as a how-to type book, though it wasn’t for me.
As for the food thing, check that out. You can’t always rely on the kindness of others… or you can, if you check out the local food closet. If you’ve got the time, you can do some volunteer work and at least you’ll be giving back.
Glad things are looking a little better today. I think people were unanimous in the “ditch the BF” idea, but your lack of any response on that topic makes me think it is a little more complex. Some guesses with the little info I have:
Did he use to be a lot more supportive? It can be very difficult to be in a relationship with someone with bipolar disorder. He would never know where he stands and always have the rug being cut out from under him by changes in mood. When you deal with someone who cries every day and nothing you do has the least bit effect you start to tune it out for your own sanity. If you two are living together than you probably have been together for a while now. This means that he either a) is someone who cares very much about you and is doing his best to try and help you. Even the ride thing could be an attempt to pull you out of depression by having you achieve things on your own. Of course almost any attempts along those lines are doomed as other people can do very little about changing someone with depression. Or b) he is an emotionally abusive asshat who is using you. Considering you are depressed it is very easy to fall into an abusive relationship, emotional or physical, as a person in this situation often doesn’t feel they are worth anything better.
You should be able to tell which if you honestly examine the situation. If it turns out to be option b, then you have to realize that you do not need even his lousy attempts at support. They hurt you more than they help you. If it is hard to get out of depression it is damn near impossible if you have someone making you feel worthless everyday. The idea of being alone can seem even more scary when going through these psycological issues than it normally is, but no BF is better than a bad BF.
I hope you are able to put things together, and it sounds like you are making a great start at it with the new job. It sounds like you now have the makings of some great enchiladas. Go crazy and some crazy stuff. Enjoy.