I guess it partially comes from a life of introversion. I am more or less indifferent to the needs of my friends and family. I find it easier to let them know ahead of time that i am not really reliable, but sometimes they don’t listen.
Shit. All the suffering i caused my mom & dad from ignoring their needs. I have had 2 good friends, both of which stated they hated me because i was so cold & unresponsive.
I don’t know what hte solution is.
Well, you’ll need them one day. If they “ignore” you, that may just be the swift kick in the rear you need
not really. I am an introvert, i can function quite well without friends or people to talk to.
So, you’re an introvert – but you don’t like people hating and misunderstanding you? Can’t really see how that’s going to change unless you can somehow go through a personality polar shift and become what folks might expect of you.
Are you happy? Really, truly happy? Do you find purpose in your life, even given the fact that you disprove the adage that “no man/woman is an island” by how you are?
If you’re happy, don’t sweat the small stuff. But, if you miss having those friends, if you regret not being able to connect emotionally with folk – seriously consider talking to those who can help give you enough challenges of the inner self in order that you may change.
Just my tuppence worth. Peace to you, The Calculus of Logic.
Well, you seem to like talking here well enough. 
Do you really revel in your chilly indifference, or do you honestly want to make changes to your approach to people/life?
It’s all very well to ‘function quite well’ but I suggest you might be missing the kaleidescope of human experiences that offer joy and sadness and all the stuff in between with your attitude. I dunno how you ‘fix’ it, but at least acknowledgement that you might be looking at things a bit skew-wiff is a start.
Just a Saturday Night Thought…courtesy of your friendly neighbourhood kambuckta.
Damn. Icey beat me to it.
go jump off a bridge! DUH
I’d prefer to change. At the very least i want to make sure people know i am not reliable and not to depend on me. I told my 2 friends repeadly that i wasn’t a reliable person, but i don’t know if they got the message.
the stuff i did to hurt my parents was 5 years ago, when i was 17. I think i am a different person now, so hopefully that won’t happen again.
Well, before you can know what the solution is you’ve got to know what the question is.
At some point you’ve got to decide if maintaining relationships at any level (for you) is worth the effort. You’ve really got to decide what you want and your OP is not entirely clear (to me) on this issue.
Do you want to have working personal relationships on some level even though you are not emotionally wired to really care about other people?
or
Do you not really care about having relationships, but you just don’t want people to to be angry and dissapointed with you because of your emotional disconnectedness?
The first will require substantive change and work and maybe even therapy and a realization that there are times that you may have to roll up your sleeves and do the grunt work necessary to “fake it”. A lot of the human race does this every single day of their lives so you will plenty of company.
The other choice will simply require the realization that even the minimal relationship expectations of normal human beings are hard to dissuade because they are also wired in emotionally and socially, and “being a bastard” is pretty much where you are going to pegged for the rest of your life, regardless of whatever warning notices you may give. There is no real “solution” available for this choice, simply a level of resignation.
Which is it?
Just because you don’t need them now, doesn’t mean you’ll never need them.
I agree with astro. There’s a minimal amount of “connectedness” which people will expect of you. Outside of that, you define the relationship.
I get a sense that you are remorseful about your tiff with the 'rents. Have you talked to them about it? Maybe you would like to apologize in some way. It might be helpful just to write a letter stating your feelings- which you don’t necessarily have to mail.
Mull these thoughts over for a while, and see what you come up with.