I remember reading in your thread after your mother passed away that you feared having a difficult time facing your birthday. Well, I hope you don’t mind, but I looked around in your blog and ascertained that today is that day. And I just wanted to let you know that I’m thinking about you and wishing you well and hoping that you have as much comfort and strength as you need to cope.
I understand that it will sound trite to simply wish you a “Happy Birthday”, but I do pray that it is as good as it can be under the circumstances. Please hang in there, think good thoughts, enjoy yourself as much as you can and know that, in another corner of the world, someone is sending good vibes your way.
If all else fails, consume lots of amounts sweets, treat yourself to some goodies and lose yourself in the moment. Feel free to take a break and just relax and enjoy to the best of your ability. And as always, my heart still goes out to you and yours. Take utmost care dear.
God bless.
{{{Infectious Lass}}}
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Oh, and I really hope that you don’t mind me posting this. I would have taken it to email instead, or perhaps sent an e-card, but I couldn’t find your addy anywhere. Here or on your site/blog, etc.
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Hopefool
Thankyou so much for posting this!
I really appreciate it. 
No I do not mind you posting. I was going to make my email address visible but I have changed my email address recently and to change the address on here would mean I couldn’t post for a few days and I thought that I might need to post all of a sudden! It is sapphirepebble@aol.com if you want to write.
Thankyou so much for your thoughts Yeah, today, my birthday has been a bit rough, it doesn’t help that it is a week since…you know. As I sit and type this, it is about this time last week that it happened. I hadn’t cried for a few days, but tonight I felt lousy and I cried.
Do you know I went in a shop today where they know us and the bloke said smiling “where is your mum today?” he didn’t know. Wow, that stung.
Part of me still can’t believe she is gone, the shock and rawness of new grief is now replaced with depression. I have beaten depression before, I think I can do it again.
Going away with my boyfriend for two days from Sunday morning, go back on Monday night in good time for the funeral, my Dad will have my brothers with him so he won’t be on his own…I am hoping that that will make me feel better. The funeral is all arranged now. I picked ‘ave maria’ and ‘amazing grace’ for the music.
that’s an update for you. But thankyou so much for your kind wishes I really do appreciate it. So today I have my fifty pounds birthday money, my last present from her…Andy thought maybe I should buy a locket and put her picture in it…that’s a nice thought, although Mum would probably think I was going all Queen Victoria after the death of Albert and would be upsetting myself too much!
Anyway, thankyou hopefool I am going to make it I think! Thanks for your wishes
I really do appreciate that you and others are sending good vibes and thinking of me, thankyou so much! Little bit nervous of the funeral on Tuesday…wish me luck with that everyone!
I feel awful that I didn’t see this thread for so long! I haven’t been online as much as I normally was this past week…anyway seeing this thread has dispelled some of the depression I have felt tonight!
Thankyou so much, I really appreciate it.
Like I said, Lass–we’re here for you.
{{{ Infectious Lass }}}
Thanks Bosda
Hey, could any of you who have been to funerals tell me what they are like? I realise that they are all different, but they are really not scary are they?
Today I have been getting worried about practical things like paying bills etc, I worry that we will not have enough money now that mum is gone and we don’t get her money anymore. I was trying to be as well organised as her and as good at doing things as her but I can’t be, I’m not her, I’m me and I can never be her.
Anyway, I am hoping that once we are past this 1 week anniversary, and the funeral I can start to really recover in earnest! Here’s hoping eh?