Well, I saw my ex boyfriend at a pub last weekend. We had a very nasty break up over two years ago (he was cheating on me) and I have seen him a couple times since. We dated on and off for around three years.
Anyway, I saw him there with two old friends of ours, who came up to say hi and have a chat with me to catch up. My ex wouldn’t come near me, but I could see him taking sneaky glances at me all night. Myself, I couldn’t take my eyes off him. My stomach felt jumpy when I saw him, then was replaced by a wave of warmth. I wanted to talk to him but I didn’t, because he had hurt me so badly and I had found out that since our break up he had withheld something extremely important to both of us from me. (Unrelated, so I won’t go into it.)
Anyway, That was almost seven days ago, and I haven’t been able to get him out of my mind. I have dreamt about him every night. Mostly it’s about him and I making love, and I seem to remember every detail of the dreams and I wake up thinking that he’s still beside me. This afternoon, though, I had the most vivid dream I have ever had about him.
He was in my room, and he sat next to me. I put my arms around him and snuggled up to him, and when I looked up at his face he had started to cry. I had asked him why and he had said something along the lines of, “I just can’t believe that after all this time you still love me.” I told him, of course I do. Then, he proceeded to tell me that I was the only girl he had been really in love with since we broke up. Then, suddenly, our faces were inches apart. He lifted my chin up and kissed me. When I woke up I was crying, and felt horribly empty and alone.
That dream disturbed me enough to ask this question: Is this normal? Do you think that this means I haven’t moved on or had closure yet? If yes, then what should I do? And has anyone else had an experience like this?
Thanks in advance Dopers.