I’ve posted before about how my life basically blows.
Well to cap it all off, I was laid off last Wednesday because the company that bought us is doing a reduction in force. Isn’t life freaking grand?
No source of income except for 4 weeks severance plus my wife’s disability check. No insurance for me or my wife (thank Og the state has insurance for kids) but my wife needs medicine for hypertension and type 2 diabetes. Our savings are gone, we’ve run through our 401k, we’ve sold everything we can. No family support: my FIL who has money falling out of his ass told my wife that I was a loser because I couldn’t hold a job (despite the fact that I’ve never been out of work for more than 2 weeks since I started working) and my parents haven’t called me back since I told them about it last week. We had already been circling the drain financially, sinking further and further down because of outstanding medical bills and debt. Bill collectors are calling constantly. And now this.
I know I’ll find another job. I know that eventually I’ll be working and insured. But right now we are using the last $300 on our last credit card (the rest are more than maxed out) to buy groceries and a cheap video game for my son’s 15th birthday Saturday (I couldn’t stand the idea of him not getting something from us).
I’m tired of God/fate/the Universe/random quantum fluctuations routinely taking a crap on me and my family. I want the pendulum to swing the other way. I want success and happiness. I want stability and health. I no longer want to be Job, damn it!
Don’t worry about me doing anything drastic (besides, my only life insurance was from my old job). I just needed to vent about how depressing life is. I’d talk to a professional but I can’t afford it. And when I can finally afford it, I won’t need it!
Thank you for considering my pity party. Back to your regularly scheduled lives.