I am so glad you’re somewhere safe. You will overcome this. Some day you will look back and wonder if you’re remembering another, sadder lifetime. Until then wishing you all the cyberolives imaginable. ()()()()
I just found this thread - feel like kind of a jerk!
Oh Faithfool, you are one of the best! I would never have guessed that you deal with the issues you describe. Most of our interaction has been over a certian Rockstar with a few issues of his own. In those posts you’ve come across as smart, funny and knowlegable.
I’ve done some of the counsellor thing myself and some out-patient school as a teenager. All I know is that when I accepted help, it worked.
I’ll keep you in my heart and I’m sending the best of hugs and good things for you. Go play “Hello Hooray” and take in the “God, I feel so strong!!!” Make it your own. Use it as a battle cry. Say it until you mean it even when it feels very far away. Matter of fact, I heard it on the radio today and held onto it a bit because The Guy is having a flare-up of his paranoia issues and it’s going to be rough for a while again. He’ll get back on track. So will you.
love, zoo
Not much of a update, but nevertheless…
First, I hadn’t realized there were new replies. Thank you everyone, so much, for being so great. As usual, you guys are part of the reason that I keep hanging on. I can’t imagine what I’d do without y’all, especially my close friends here and now, my Alice twin. {{{hugs zoo}}} 
You all are the bomb!
Next, I saw the psychiatrist for a second time yesterday. It wasn’t much of an exciting meeting and, as those things tend to go, it was extremely short, but overall I think we’re at least moving in the right direction. As I said previously, the Abilify is definitely helping, although it’s following a somewhat predictable path for me. Anytime one things is sort of quashed (in this case it would be the depression), the other thing that bothers me second most (like anxiety) then ramps up to an unbelievable degree. And that’s where I stand.
I explained that to her, as well as reminding about doing the outpatient therapy, and fortunately, she’s not one of those doctors to throw medications at it from all over the place until she knows what works. So in the interim, while costlier to do it that way, we’re upping the dosage amount on the Abilify before adding in something to directly target anything other than just stabilizing my mania (read: Bipolar). For that I’m glad too. She gave me enough samples to get through so that I won’t even need this next prescription and, finally, we discussed starting the OPT in 2 weeks after my husband’s vacation is over.
So that’s about it. I saw my regular doctor too and despite needing to adjust my blood pressure medicine, everything else is in great working order and even she thinks things are visibly improving for me. There may be hope yet. With this place here, and the support I have at home, I’m almost completely confident that this time will be so different that there’s nothing else for me to do but get totally well.
Anyway, that’s what I’m going to visualize and believe in. That’s the least I can do in return for all the wonderful folks here who have faith in me. Onward to tomorrow, huh? 
((((((KEMI)))))))
Bill
Also, Baby-Girl… if you need me to do anything for you at all, just write, okay?
I know it’s tough. Whatever I can do for you, just let me know?
((((((HUGS))))) again!
Don’t forget about us, okay???
Bill
faithfool I am so sorry you are going through this. I very much understand where you are coming from. Big hugs.
You guys are so great. Gah, makes me cry more than usual! And to help me cope with this new round of trying to figure things out, I’ve started my own social group elsewhere. If anyone in this thread is interested in the issues of mental illness (for themselves or others), please PM and I’ll get you a link. I’d love to be able to do this here, but since we don’t have the capability, I’ve figured out what I could and would love as many of you to help us all out as are willing.
Again, thanks everyone. I love you guys!