Yeah so apparently I just suck. The way I figure it I either emit some kind of noxious odor that sends people running for the hills, or I have more bad luck than you can wave a stick at.
I’ve made plenty of friends in my life (granted, it’s only been 19 years in the making), but that’s mainly because every year or so I lose them all and have to start from scratch. Whats up with that? Had plenty of friends growing up in California, then moved halfway across the country to Texas. Went to a small school for a year, made one really good friend who before the next school year was to begin, moved to Boston. Ok, dumb luck…
8th grade, new school, make two really good friends, things are good.
9th grade, first semester, friend 1 moves to new jersey, make 3 or 4 new friends. 9th grade, x-mas - right before spring semester, friend 2 (the second one from 8th grade), moves to ohio. So now I have a 3friends I’ve just recently met, not so bad, eventually 2 of them become really good friends.
10th grade, one of these 2 good friends moves to cali.
11th grade, the other gets kicked out of school on some bullshit charge, gets his high school equivalence via the corrections program, and moves to colorado to college for a few months and eventually to just be a bum. Well, I still have 2 friends left, but guess what? They’re a year older than me so they leave for college.
So senior year, no more of my original friends, start hanging out with some kids from my classes and end up being friends with them. Naturally, however, we graduate, and head off to different schools.
Back to square one, but no biggie, so are most people freshman year. I make a few friends but two really close ones (my roommate and another guy in our suite). Things are good again…
So here I am…sophomore year. What could go wrong? Well, one kid I’m living with and am somewhat close friends to drops out… sucks… Then my closer friend from freshman year tells me he’s spending all of next year in europe… Then my roommate tells me he’s living with his team next year. So now what? The few people I’ve gotten to know really well and can get along with in any circumstance are gone, and now its time to sign leases for apartments for next year…WTF
Am I cursed? I know it’s somewhat normal to not make a HUGE group of friends (though I had something of the sort growing up), but are they somehow obligated to leave every 2 years? FUCK
So now I’m scrambling for living options… The people i’m living with now (minus roommate and friend who dropped out) are nice and all but I’m not sure if any of them get the type of person who isn’t interested in their brand of fun, and they certainly aren’t the type of people I could have any sort of intellectual exchange with or any conversation with measurable depth for that matter. Is that asking too much?
Yeah this is a rant/self-deprecation type thing and no doubt nobody will read the whole thing or care… Yes poor me, all caught up in my own petty problems… But at this late hour when I should be doing mountains of schoolwork I’m suddenly drawn toward thoughts of this nature and, well, this little php messageboard always has open arms, even if its other visitors don’t.