Everybody, thank you so much, your support has meant so much to me these past few days. I’m sorry I couldn’t let you know yesterday; we didn’t get home from the hospital until 8:30 and I was too groggy from the meds to do much of anything.
My parents took Nicholas last night and this morning, so Johnny and I had some time alone to grieve without worrying about him. We explained it to him this morning, but I’m not sure he understands.
Physically, I’m doing just fine. The doctor went ahead and did a D&C, because I was in a lot of pain, and it did help a lot. Everyone at the hospital was as nice as they could be, and did a great job explaining what was going on. They said that this early there was nothing I or anyone else could have done to make a difference, and that was some comfort.
Emotionally, I just feel drained right now. I am really worried about my husband, I think he is holding back his emotions out of a need to be strong for me. Tonight, I’m going to talk with him and let him know that I can handle it. Still, I worry, he’s not as open as I am about these things. And Mr. Cynical was right, it does seem that today I seem to be getting the majority of the condolances. I can tell that he’s hurting, too and I want to be there for him. I will show him this thread tonight, and I think that it will help him as much as it’s helped me.
I’m very thankful that DRY was willing to be the bearer of bad news, I know it was hard for him to do. It took one burden off of my back this terrible morning, and for that I thank him. I am proud to call you my friend.
And to everybody that has had a miscarriage, I’m so sorry that you had to go through this, too. It is so hard to lose a baby, even one that you never got to know.
Please, everybody, give your little ones and extra kiss and hug tonight, for my sake. It’s a little hokey, I know, but we are so very, very lucky to have them.
Tracy
