Heading down the hill on his tractor, I was behind him in case anything fell off. He started gaining speed, lost control and rolled down the side of a hill. The tractor rolled on him, and he was killed instantly. I’m in shock. Today was a gorgeous day, and we were working on the farm, clearing trees and fixing fence. The police, ambulance, coroner and fire department are all gone, and now it’s just myself, my mom and my sister, just staring at each other. I can’t believe it. I fully expect him to come in the door at any moment and make a cuppa tea.
In my entire life, I’ve never felt lost. Right now I’m adrift. Once the shock wears off it will be different, but right now it’s like everything is coated in cotton.
What a terrible shocking thing. It’s going to take you a while to believe it’s real, I’m sure. I wish we could offer more than just sympathy but if you need to talk about this here we are. I grew up on a farm and I can totally relate to how shocking and sudden this must be for you. I hope your family is able to offer support to one another in this. You all have my condolences.
I hope you write/post more about him, his life, and his experiences. It’s not just because it’s good for him to be remembered, but because it may help you to deal by sharing.
Losing my dad was one of the hardest things I’ve dealt with. Witnessing the accident must of been horrible for you. I wish you the very best as you heal and recover from this loss.