As the title says, I’ve got a new job, and I’m feeling alone. Alone doesn’t really cut it - I feel stupid. I haven’t been there long, and the job itself isn’t hard - it’s an admin assistant in a department store - but the supervisor’s gone on holiday; the store manager has left; and the two other people in the office are leaving/rather clique, and therefore a bit unconcerned when it comes to helping me out.
It’s not like the job is hard - as I’ve already said. I just keep making stupid mistakes: ringing things through incorrectly, putting forms in the wrong place, being a scatterbrain. Actually, I accidently rung through a gazzilion pounds through the till - something my colleague smiled about, gleefully.
It’s cool. It’s just, the staff are loving the fact I’m new; there’s no supervisor; mistakes are being made; and the drama of me making mistakes is a hot topic.
-Today, I answered the phone with a: ‘Hello…(while I finish what I’m doing for 3 seconds) X speaking. How can I help you’; not a: ‘Hello. X speaking. How can I help you?’.
- My colleague’s jaw dropped. ‘You know, if that was the owner, you’d be fired on the spot’ she told me, with music blaring out of her phone, after I’d finished the conversation.
…I’ve been out of work for a while. This job is a major break through. Unemployment is absolutely awful, but it takes a while to get into a working rhythm, and - perhaps - I’m finding the adjustment harder than I should?
I feel stupid. feel like the new, unpopular kid in secondary school. It sucks. They think I’m weird and scatterbrained, and it’s humiliating. All in all, it sucks monkey cock, but - hey- I’m employed, which is a damn sight that better than unemployment.
…In addition to all that, I happened to mention that I’d been to university. And that I’m 27. - I think, my great age (even though the supervisor is 46; the two, remaining office folk, are in their early 20s and see me as borderline geriatric) and my stupid education, have led them to dislike me even more.
When the supervisor returns, things will be better, right?
I feel like such a loser. -Unable to do a simple job, in tonnes of debt through university, and unable to concentrate/study when I get home after work.