ETA: On reread, I’m sorry if this comes accross as self-centred. I’m going to leave it as it is, but I don’t mean to hijack the discussion.
This is incomprehensible.
A human being cannot act this way. This man is less something fucking fundamental. Something so base you wouldn’t notice it wasn’t there, even if you took a good look, because its’ absence is inconceivable. I’ve met my share of alcoholics, junkies, violent criminals, muggers, plain bastards and crazy people.
But this guy’s got something broke inside.
I got to work at 3PM on friday and I’ve only been home for sleep. The hotel I work in is only half a mile away (corner of Rosenkrantz & Stortingsgata) but fortunately there’s a lot of buildings between us and the blast site. Even still, I got to watch the windows in our reception billow like sails in a gale as the pressure wave hit the hotel. One of these days, I’ll get a bottle of wine for the director for springing the money for bullet-proof glass.
An afternoon spent manning the phones, trying to get some sort of handle on the situation, some sort of assurance that this was an isolated incident. Things slowly ramping up as the T-word gets passed around the streets. At least five dead, dozens wounded. Shrapnel and glass everywhere. And then messages start ticking in from Utøya. Some madman’s capitalized on the chaos and opened fire on a youth camp. I took it in with half a ear - a fucking car bomb just went off half a mile away, in Oslo - until I start hearing it again. And again. One dead. Two dead. Five confirmed dead, many wounded. And the skies gets dark, I start seeing armed police rushing around in the streets and setting up barriers around Parliament and the Palace. Seven dead, numbers expected to rise. Cancelations flooding in, police cordoning of the downtown, people arguing with me when I can’t give any meaningful reassurance of safety. Ten dead. Night shift arrives. I go home, I switch on the news, ten people confirmed dead on the island and seven in the downtown area. I lie awake listening to the radio until the sky starts brightening and I’ve only got a few hours until it’s time to get back up and get in there. I doze off to twelve confirmed dead.
I wake up to over 80.
It’s gone past the point where you use letters to represent what’s happening - it’s moved over to numbers. And now it’s one guy at both scenes, a citizen, quiet guy, the kind you pass on the street hundreds of times a day. No grand conspiracy, no malevolent organization, just one person dedicated to exploring the limits of how fucked up in the head you can get.
And now it’s 85 on the island, 7 in the downtown, a number of critically wounded in the hospital and four youths still missing. Number of dead expected to reach 100. I’m not sure if I even want to post this, knowing I can’t take it down if I regret it, but for fuck’s sake. I just want to thank Idle Thoughts for forwarding the e-mail I sent to the mod loop. (I can read the boards from work, but its’ harder to post.)
I hope everyone’s taking care out there. I’m happy to see all the Norwegian dopers I’m aware of has checked in. Walking in Oslo’s been like a fucking ghost town the last day, it’s good to see people are up and talking about it.