psychology term

Hi all,
doing a little self-therapy on myself, lol and need some help with the vernacular to study more.

My issue is kinda the “last-picked-in-gym-class-complex” hehe… basically, I have a sensitivity to speaking about other people that I kno-w rather than myself or the topics of the person I’m speaking with.

Many times in my life I’ve been left behind for someone else… I thought for sure such a thing is called a “inferiority complex”, but no… these people exhibit a blaming of outside factors other than themselves.

I on the other hand will look for fault with myself 1st and then logically analyze the problem from there -but I always start with myself first to see if the problem in the situation is with me, see?

I have a fear of being replaced though… sound like anything anyone’s ever heard of?
I’d like to do some research but can’t find the right terms to google.