I’m having a reflective evening. I suppose I’m about due for a thread about my place in life. I went out for a coffee with a friend. We’ve been sharing stories. I’ve been feeling more confident about what I’ve done with my life and with what my goals are. Still hearing her many adventures makes me feel sometimes I’m on the wrong path. She’s gone traveling and hangs out with many friends. I’ve built myself up financially and have achieved a lot of career success and have built up some new professional skills (mixing and recording music as opposed to just teaching it) Of course as many dopers know since I’m so public with my social life, is that there hasn’t been a huge one. She lives with her parents, and I’m out on my own pretty much running every facet of my life.
Talking with her was funny, usually I feel she’s the confident and assured one. Tonight I felt better about myself around her, yet still not as confident as I wanted to be. I look at her and think if only I weren’t so stubbornly independent and so obsessed with growing my music skills, I could have alot more fun and enjoy the things she enjoys in life. But then I feel bad about not developing my talent.
I don’t know if there is a question or a poll here, just another rambling footnote on the craziness that is my life.
One thing I’ve realized lately, is that life is full of options. There are so many ways I could live, none of them perfect. Also the grass to me seems to always be greener on the other side.
I’m going to go plan a trip now. I need to travel and see something new.