Well, it’s kind of a date. And kind of a semi-blind date. I’m meeting this guy for the first time, possibly with a friend of his in tow, at a local gay bar. We totally hit it off on the phone last night and today. Problem is, I don’t know what he looks like. He’s given me a general description, but I’ve never seen a pic of him. However, he’s seen pics of me, and finds me attractive.
::sigh:: I know I can’t set myself up for disappointment, but it’s so hard. A co-worker of mine told me, “Nothing ventured, nothing gained.” My work fag-hag thinks it’s great that I’m meeting someone IRL instead of having online crushes with guys I might never meet. Still, she echoed what I said about not setting myself up for disappointment.
Anyway, even though I’m now 30, I’m still nervous. I know I shouldn’t project, but if I don’t click with him physically, I fear it will be evident in subsequent emails. In the past, if things didn’t work out with a guy, I’d just stop emailing and/or calling. I’d like to think I’m more mature than that now.
I guess if it’s not going to happen, it’ll be evident to both of us.
Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest.
- s.e.