Early 20’s sure do torment you, don’t they? Join the club.
I went through something like this in my late teens, just after high school though: What? A vocational certificate doesn’t help you get an entry-level position?" Add in the fact that the co-op job I had paid less than my friends at McDonald’s didn’t help either.
Professional help, possibly including medication, is a good step. But believe it or not, a no-thinking-required job can take your mind off worrying about what you’re “supposed” to be doing with your life. You’ve said that there isn’t much where you live, perhaps the paper route is what you need. But don’t take Wal-Mart though, I’ve heard nothing but horror…
Take it a bit at a time. Once you start feeling better you can start classes again. That will lead you to making acquaintences/friends/etc, and eventually you will take a look at yourself and feel that you can accomplish things. You’ve done this before (high school), you’ll do it again.
But don’t compare yourself to anyone else, especially the overachiving types. Just take it one day at a time.
) I’ve now moved away from the major anxiety and have minor problems mostly - and most of the time have no real issues with anxiety caused by the phobia. But that’s now - and it’s all the result of giving it time, thinking about who I really am at the core, and WORK -