No dash cams in my house to catch him tasing me for no reason…
Honestly, I instinctively told him no. By that I just mean I didn’t sit here and make a mental list of pros and cons of letting him come over or go through all the things that could go wrong if he did come up or consider what might happen if I didn’t let him. I just said no. It seemed like the thing to do at the time.
If I want to try to pinpoint actual reasoning for that, I could come up with some things.
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I don’t like aggressive people and he really was. If I’m already getting yelled at, or whatever, I’m not going to put myself in a position to get yelled at some more.
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I’m female, alone, and largely defenseless and I’m not saying anything would have happened but, again, I’m not going to put myself in that position. I’m closing out my seventh month of pregnancy. If he does want to escalate the situation (let’s say I only allowed him to view my son’s bed but tried to block access to other areas of the house and he gets pissed) what am I going to do about it? And without witnesses, too? No way.
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Courtesy of some trouble-making brothers, my last name isn’t completely unknown to the local authorities, a fact which I’m sure opens me up to all kinds of potential unpleasantness. I’m not terribly assertive IRL so I wouldn’t really have any recourse if he did get up here and, in his search for a 7 year old kid, started rummaging through my bathroom cabinets or dressers or whatever. There’s nothing to find, but that’s not the point.
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Previously mentioned bad experience with law enforcement, about which I will say I was the victim of a pretty serious crime when I was a minor and was taken by a cop (without the permission or even knowledge of my parents) to a cemetery after dark for “questioning”, which really amounted to him making me reiterate every single detail of a traumatic experience just so he could attempt to poke holes in a story he obviously did not believe. Way creepy and kind of puts me off police in general. For the same reason, I’ve always said I will not pull over for a cop if I’m somewhere that is not at least reasonably public, well-lit, well-traveled, etc. I’ve never been pulled over so I’m not sure how I would handle that, but I would figure it out. Cops scare me.
On preview, that was to neuroman. Thanks for your input though, not_alice. I don’t think it was stupid, either.
