[hijack] Um, elsewhere. That you, Kitten? [/hijack]
Thanks for all the replies… After I wrote the original post, I thought “I must be crazy to share this”… But all the responses are really heartening…
I’ve been working on myself for a long time now, and have found that some of my cousins and at least one aunt have been really supportive of me…
It’s strange… Those cousins got in touch with me because of my father’s funeral, and knew there was more to the story than my mother was telling them…
So, after almost 20 years of being cut off from the family, I find that I actually have people who are supportive of me, and know just how screwed up the rest of my family is/was…
I actually flew home without telling anyone and went to see my dad’s grave… I felt sort of stupid, but cried for a while and then ended up getting pissed off at him for not even bothering to contact me before he died…
After a few minutes I thought “Fuck you”, drove around the town I grew up in, and realized I’ve changed alot and am really far from that place now… and not just in physical distance…
So I called my airline and changed my flight… and went HOME to the SF Bay area… not the place I grew up in…
I hate to say there’s a spiteful streak in me, but I took a pic of his grave with my digital camera, and keep fantasizing of printing it up and sending a copy to my mother just to let her see that even though she kept me away from the funeral, she couldn’t keep me away from mourning…
I wake up in the middle of the night thinking, yeah, I could send a pic with “Having a Great time, wish you were here” written on the pic… 
In case anyone’s worried, I won’t do it… I think its more fun as a fantasy than it would be in reality…
Although I just MIGHT throw on a dress and crash a family get-together some time… Hehehehe.
KevinB
Man, what a fuckin’ shrew!
I’m with Opal. Just let me know time and place, and I can bring up some of the most beautiful drag queens with me. Two of my friends were Miss Gay Iowa!
We can have our own little gay pride parade right out in front of her house. Just to show how supportive we are of you even if your family (namely your egg donor) can’t find it in her heart to be a parent.