Call this a rant, if you want.
In a little over a week I’m heading north to Dartmouth. I’m going to be a freshman. I’m terrified, to say the least. I’ve always lived in the same house, had a (relatively) stable family and ready support network…
and now the friend closest to me will be an hour and a half away
my closest friend will be six hours away
my family will be ten hours away
and quietgirldownthehall will be ten hours away.
I have no real concept of what college life is going to be like. I don’t know how many clothes to take. I have not the slightest idea. My dorm room is something like 11 by 10. What can I fit in that? Will my hermit crabs be able to survive? Will I be able to watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer? ARRGH!
More importantly: Is there any little item that every college kid should have that I simply don’t know about?
It’s not that I’m going to curl up into a fetal ball and wither away, but I’m a little scared. I mean… I don’t want to leave quiet girl. Why does she have to be a year younger, damn it? And I am sick and tired of people saying, “Oh, high school relationships don’t last. You’ll go to college and forget about her.” Good grief. I don’t care if most hs relationships go to hell, I’m not going to throw away a year and a half of happiness just to chase the first co-ed that I see. And I can do ldrs.
Forgive me, I just needed to unburden a little of what’s on my mind. Everyone around me is too busy telling me that I’ll be okay to listen to any concerns I have.
I’ve been ready to go to college since I hit high school. Now that it’s getting closer, tho… I don’t feel like I’m ready at all.
I feel like this should be a dear abby letter,