Checking in from Dartmouth here… I’m kind of sort of adjusting to college life. My room is a mess and I’m dead on my butt. Sort of homesick. I just got my computer today, so I thought I’d swing by.
When things get more normal I’ll tell you all you ever wanted to know about how college is treating me.
I just got off the phone with quietgirl, actually… I’m kind of teary. I miss her horribly. It’s like there’s this hollow spot in the back of my throat… sigh. Yes, we’re still going strong, and will be for quite some time, I’m sure.
College life is quite hectic. I seem to be cultivating a reputation for eccentricity. Can’t imagine why. The hardest part, except for missing quietgirl, is the lack of connection, if that makes any sense. What I mean is that people are going around asking:
What’s your name?
Where are you from?
Where do you live?
That’s not getting to know someone. Not really. I’ve introduced myself to so many people, but I’ve only had conversations with a few. I’m not that easy to be friends with to some extent, I think. I’m floundering around trying to find someone to connect with that I can honestly talk to. There’s a few people who seem like they’re going to be friends, but it’s strange to have to be in the preliminary stages with everyone you meet.
You’ll get details tomorrow, I promise.
On a side note, I learned today that “Ivy League” is a registered trademark. This amused me.
Other random facts: Racial diversity is very big here. I like it. My high school was very whitebread, and for the first time I’m in a position where a lot of my (potential) friends are exceptionally diverse. My room has a lot of rainbow stuff in it, which I didn’t realize until a gay guy friend made the comment that one of the walls looked like Pride Central. Which is strange, because I’m not particularly gung ho about pride. I just like rainbows a lot.
So good to hear you’re making an effort to meet people! Don’t worry- once everyone gets settled in and comfy in their new digs, they’ll become more sociable.
As for the loneliness, well… you’ll always have us.
I think you’ll do just fine at Dartmouth, andygirl. Hang in there.
Hey there andygirl; it’s good to hear from you. I’m sure you’ll make some close friends soon.
I know it can be hard when you’re university takes over, and you don’t know that many people. If you need someone to talk to, just send me an e-mail, or drop me a line on icq. I’ve got some strange hours (I’m a film student) but I’m around.
Good to hear from you, andygirl. It takes awhile to get used to a new situation like that, but you willget used to it, and then enjoy it.
As for quietgirl…long distance relationships are hard, as I know from experience. But if you both mean it, it can work–I know that from experience too.
Glad to hear you’re not too bad so far. You’re entering into one of the most exciting periods of your life. It’s not always going to be nice but always interesting. Attending a college rich in diversity is a bonus. Embrace life. Make friends if you feel like it. Don’t if you don’t. As long as you learn and I’m not talking about classes alone. You’re there to learn about life.
God, I sound old there. gets off his soapbox
Have fun hon.
Good luck with the long distance thing too - I know how hard that can be.
Yes, I really did miss you, and I’m so happy to hear from you again, and to hear that overall things are working out. Please tell quietgirl (I don’t think she reads the board) that I said hi also!
Remember what I mailed you - you and quietgirl can make it, I know. You both have to fight to keep sadness distant while you are apart, and fight to make sure that your bond is not weakened by outside influences (her family). You may have to fight as fiercely as a wolf protecting her cub, but I know the two of you can do it.
Will quietgirl be joining you there in a year BTW? I don’t think you ever mentioned if that was possible.
Quietgirl told me that she only reads once and a while because the boards make her miss me. Sigh…
No, her going here is really not in the cards. She might go near here, but there’s just no way she could/should go to Dartmouth. For starters, she wants to be a music teacher and there’s not really an ed program here.
People aren’t really big on sleep here… whee. Tonight was entertaining- there was an assembly on drinking. I’mm dry and always have been… but let’s just say that I’m really glad I’m living in the substance free dorms. Less likely to have vomit in the showers in the mornings.
Tonight was also the first rainbow alliance meeting. I met some fellow queers… nice people. One of them amuses me because she’s the most granola butch lesbian I’ve ever met.
My parents, meanwhile, are convinced that I’m becoming psycho just because I’m not constantly emailing them. Ah, growing up.