UPDATE
I had hoped to be typing a message of joy today. Unfortunately, that is not the case.
Brief history thus far: took the Texas bar exam in February and am awaiting results. Had some interviews over the past few months that didn’t pan out for various reasons. Became very, very frustrated.
Until a few weeks ago. I interviewed with a firm opening a Houston office. Good firm, competitive comp, a chance to be in on the ground floor. And it went well – really well. Got past the screening interview, did the “full day at our offices” interview, got very positive feedback. The headhunter who hooked me up basically said the job was in the bag – I was, if not a 100% match, a very close fit for what they were looking for, and they had had nothing but positive things to say about me.
I felt so good about this that I made the mistake of telling my parents that, while nothing was for certain, there was a good chance I’d be coming home. Big mistake. Mom started scoping out houses.
Which made today’s phone call all the more upsetting. Turns out they have a major client who just brought them a handful of big deals requiring commodity experience, experience I lack. They had initially thought they could bring on someone like me, with related experience, and take the time to bring me up to speed, but with this new development they think they need someone who can hit the ground at full speed now – so they’re now going to look for a more senior person with that specific experience.
FUCK.
I am told by the headhunter that I’m not out of the running entirely – they’re looking to expand relatively quickly and may need a corporate associate as soon as they hire more partners for the office; they do like me and since I’ve already been through the interview process, I could be brought in quickly. But that won’t happen for at least several weeks at the earliest, and even then its not something I can count on.
So here I am, unable to sleep. I feel like an absolute shell of a person. And I’m going batshit crazy from hanging out at home all day. Goddammit, all I want to do is to get back in the game.
PS – some of you guys have been incredibly supportive. minty green and Maeglin in particular have been helpful and kind far beyond anything I could have imagined. Thank you all for helping out during a difficult time in my life.