So. I was pregnant, and now I’m not. Well, technically I still am, but as of day before yesterday the ultrasound showed two empty sacs instead of the two babies and heartbeats that it showed the previous appointment.
Needless to say, I took all day yesterday off and I’ll probably take today off too. Husband and I are both really torn up. This was our very last chance after about 5 years of trying, IUI, & IVF. We’re coming to terms with the idea of never being “natural” parents.
I don’t know what to tell my boss at work. She seems pretty cool so far, but I don’t know her that well (I just transferred to her as of the beginning of June.) I had explained all the appointments, both for the IVF and afterwards, as “ongoing GYN issues” and the IVF procedure as “some fairly minor surgery to hopefully correct it.” All of which is true, of course, but not the whole truth as I felt it wasn’t anyone else’s business and I didn’t know how gossipy she might be.
The doctor said I can either wait for things to come out naturally or have a D&C - I definitely want the latter, and soon, to help me move on - also I’ve miscarried on my own before and it was highly unpleasant to say the least, and I wasn’t as far along that time. I’ve called the doctor to let him know but I haven’t gotten a call back yet, so I don’t know when they’ll be able to take me in. If I’m lucky it’ll be today, but I doubt it will be before Monday.
So how do I explain all this? I told her I had a migraine yesterday, instead of “I’m too sad to work.” But if the D&C is done Monday, that’ll be at least 3 1/2 days in a row that I’m off, and she’ll want some sort of explanation.
I dunno. I can’t really think well right now. Help me, Dope?