If he loves me, then yes, he is sad for my pain and my error. If he’s disgusted by me, or if I think I know him but I’m wrong, and he doesn’t know me - then he’s not sad, I’d guess. Absolute justice, and all that.
I’m trying to find the times Jesus spoke about who doesn’t “get in”, and having no luck right now. For now the Revelation will have to suffice:
I’m fearful. At times I’m unbelieving. I’m abominable, certainly. I murder in my heart almost every day. I’m sure I’m an idolater, and a liar, though I try not to be. I don’t think I’m actually a whoremonger or a sorcerer, but still, it looks like I might be in a lot of trouble.
His4Ever, thanks for the link. I can’t argue with it scripturally; he certainly supports his statements in that regard. However, even after reading the tiny paragraph at the end about how God will spare those who trust in Him, I am not confident I’d make that cut. Do I trust him enough? Will he smite me? Do I only think I’m a Christian, but Jesus will know better?
gobear, that’s certainly the path I’d take if I believed Christianity was false. I believe it’s true - simply that Jesus lived and died for our sins and was raised from the dead. Ergo, I am a Christian. I must try to follow the path but I find it very difficult going and have no internal assurance that it’s the right path. Part of my search is figuring out what position to place the Bible in my faith. I can’t disregard it, but - how can I express this - it freaks me out at every turn. I know the God of Love and comfort is in there, but all the texts on love and comfort are permanently stained for me by all the texts on smiting and wrath and judgment (which, as the website points out, are very much more numerous).
If you’ve prayed the sinner’s prayer and meant it, then you belong to Him. When I accepted Him, I didn’t hear angels singing or have special feelings other than the fact that I knew there was a change. I knew He’d come in and I started wanting to go to church again after not going for years. I wanted to please Him, though I’ve managed to fail many times since then. I’ve asked His forgiveness and gone on.