A Brief History of Ratdom - AKA the MMP

Well 2am is Monday so I might as well get this going…

Our story begins a few years ago. I was a sickly lad, oft busy in pursuits of…oh wait no, wrong beginning. Actually I was a programmer, working in Tokyo and planning to go to animation school. What followed ended up being a rather horrid descent into burning out. The company that I worked for did not want to allow me to work part time, so I had to find work with another company while I went to school. In truth, I didn’t need money, but I couldn’t legally stay in the country and study animation without a job.

The job I found started off with a bang, porting Linux to a pocket-dictionary type device. The schedule for this project was six months. I joined three months into the project. The work force was four programmers, including myself. Only one of these (my boss) had any relevant experience. The other two programmers ended up being unusable for the project, neither understanding the language nor the concepts. I knew enough about low level programming that I was able to start doing stuff pretty immediately even though I had zero practical experience.

So we had two programmers, and three months for what was meant to be a four programmer X six month project. Nothing had been accomplished in the three months before I arrived.

I started this job the same day as I started animation school. For the next three months, I got up every day at 8:30am, packed into a 98 degree train to ride for an hour to school, studied, got out, had a brief lunch, went to work, and then went home on the last train (equally packed and still 98 degrees.) At 1am I would arrive home. Weekends, I didn’t have school, so I got to sleep until noon, then go into work and work until midnight and take the last train.

I also had homework, which I had to try and do over the weekend, since that was the only time I had some time to sleep. A full animation project would usually take a full night, so I would generally do it on Sunday night and not sleep that night.

It’s probably worth pointing that I also have a sleep disorder, such that I don’t get very well rested if I try to sleep at night. This meant that even though I was dead tired every day, I would still generally end up on the internet or playing a game until 3 to 4 am since I couldn’t sleep. In total, I was getting about 4 hours of sleep for three nights a week, Friday and Saturday I would stay up until 6 or 7 am and get 6 or 7 hours of sleep before work, and then no sleep on Sunday.

The three months of work hell ended just a few weeks after my school went on break for the summer. I slept as much as I could over the summer but when it started, I still felt like I still wasn’t rested all the time (spending a week moving to a new apartment didn’t help.) Two weeks or so in, my parents called to tell me that my grandfather had lung cancer and had a 90% chance of being dead within a year. The two weeks after that, I would set my alarm for 8:30 every day and in the morning, get woken up and just not care enough to get up and go to school. Due to my sleep disorder, by the afternoon, I would wake up enough that even though I still felt pretty sucky, I went to work every day.

Slowly the number of days that I couldn’t make myself get up in the morning became greater, but because I intended to go every day I set my alarm, would wake up, not be able to get out of bed, and still tell everyone at work that I was going to school.

Now I’m not a quitter. I’m not the type of person you see in movies who flits about from passion in life to new passion in life. But the three months of solid work and no sleep followed by the news of my grandfathers illness had fairly well destroyed my ability to care enough. My detestation of looking like a quitter made it take months to realise and admit to myself that:

  1. Tracing cells for two years wasn’t something I would be able to do, because
  2. There’s no chance a Japanese company would let an American rise beyond being a grunt animator.
  3. So essentially, the thing I wanted to do in Japan wasn’t going to work.
  4. Even I can’t live with zero social life. And Japan is not a place where a white guy can develop a serious social life unless he’s in to clubbing and girls who only like him for his skin color.
  5. The above four things are (basicly) true, and not just you trying to weasel out of having to carry on.

So yep, I failed. I learned to animate, but never had the free time to perfect my craft. I have almost no drawings to show anyone since I didn’t have time nor the will to draw for most of the last two years. And only just now that I’ve finally left Japan and am getting proper food,* am I getting the energy to do anything.

I was supposed to go to Yakushima a week or two ago, and ended up not going because I couldn’t care enough to get up and go to the airport. Instead I sat in my apartment and watched Lost, when I should have been packing to come back to the US.

I am now back in the States though. I have decided on a condominium to purchase. I will be calling about a puppy tomorrow. I’ve got a couple of versions of a query letter to get my book published, hopefully. And I finally made my first recipes from the cookbook I bought a year ago, for my mom last night.**

My future plan is to become self-employed through programming, writing, and drawing–and to find me a woman! I’ll be happy if I succeed at at least one of those two. :wink: And things are looking decent on that end. I’m doing stuff again.

My Sage words of wisdom from all of this is: If you don’t have time to sleep just to have enough time to get a minimal amount of joy out of your day, don’t wait. Get out of that situation. Or something like that.

Ah well.

  • I ended up moving closer to town so I didn’t have the hour long, 98 degree train ride twice a day, just to end up someplace that had nowhere to eat and a supermarket with nothing but soy sauce and fish. I don’t eat fish! :smack:

** Hummus and Tandoori Chicken. The hummus was perfect; it could have been served in a restaurant. The chicken was juicy, but the marinade didn’t flavor it very much. I need to ask my brother (the chef) what went wrong.

Great OP, SageRat but a sad tale all the same. I know what you mean about the sleep thing, I have a lot of trouble sleeping and for me, five hours is a blessing. Mostly it’s 3-4 and I never seem to reach proper deep sleep. I wake up almost hourly some nights which is really frustrating. Cute puppy though!

Today I’m at work but wishing I wasn’t as I’ve still got The Sick. I had to cancel my bit of helicopter fun yesterday because there was no way I could have driven to Southampton and back - instead I spent the day on the sofa either watching telly or reading a book. Ophelia decided I needed a whole day of feline company so she plonked herself on my lap and that was me not moving for the rest of the day.

It was nice in a way, but I wish I’d felt well enough to enjoy it. Last night I went to bed late and then couldn’t sleep for the coughing. So now I’m at work because I know what our employer’s sickness absence policy is like…and since I got dragged over the coals for the number of sick days I had last year, I’d already decided to haul myself in to the office whatever condition I’m in. So here I am, snuffly and sinus-bunged, with a cough that a sixty-a-day smoker would be proud of.

Envy me.

ETA: Woo! I’m first!

T.G.I.M.
SageRat, I’ve been in that situation, and you’re right. There’s no point running yourself into the ground. I hope you have some success with the book or the animation(cool bunny!).

Get better soon BooFae!

It’s Monday already? How did that happen?

Cool OP, SageRat. Glad you recognized you needed to get out; hope everything goes well for you in this new phase of your life!

Off to work…

GT

A Monday morning harrrumph to y’all.

A Family Truckster part deux has ensued. Of course we have the luck of buying a Dodge Caravan the day before Daimler announces it’s selling off it’s interest in Chrysler. :rolleyes:

Later, dudes and dudettes.

Well, Bob the sale shouldn’t affect your enjoyment of the new vessel. There will still be parts available for years to come.

The stuff I planted in the front yard two weeks ago has started coming up, so I gotta get some started fertilizer for it today. Flushed with that success, I did some more grass planting in the backyard yesterday - patched a couple of bare spots. But I didn’t waste the whole weekend on just a couple of bare spots - I managed to finish off three or four major subquests in Balder’s Gate II!

Waving a quick HOWDY Y’ALL, and getting back to work. I’ll read and catch up and be relevant later.

Probably.

I went through something similar in grad school, Sage Rat. (Do you have a nickname yet? If not, we have to come up with one asap!) It does suck. A lot. But knowing it’s not working and realizing that you have to get out - that your health is more important than avoiding failure - is not a bad thing to recognize. And let me tell you, 3 1/2 years after getting out, life is a lot better on the other side of all that crap. I hope you end up in as good a place as I have.

It got HOT here yesterday. It started out with a cool, overcast morning when I went to church. I was inside until late-ish afternoon and when I went outside again, it was over 90! It was like walking into a wall of heat. That’s like a 30 degree increase in the temperature since morning, and there was a 15 degree spike in just over an hour. Ugh. And tomorrow’s high is supposed to be in the low-60s. Sheesh.

Yerggghhh!! There’s this thing happening outside and I don’t like it! It’s like all wet in the air kinda. Not a good day for straightened hair or wearing linen. :stuck_out_tongue:

Great OP, sr! Loved your pic. Sounds like a terrible grind, though.

The Princess[sup]TM[/sup] took me shopping for Mother’s Day and then to lunch. We were going to go to see Spiderman but I really wasn’t in the mood for a movie, so we did some more shopping. :smiley:

Feel better, boofae!

How’s the vundervife doing, bobbio?

I have to go to a “Harrassment in the Workplace” seminar this afternoon. I’ve already been to one so I’m less than thrilled to have to go again. Oh, well, it’ll make the day go faster.

Tupug

Good morning Kiddies. I’m up early since Hubby and I have to take the truck in for brakes today.
Last Thursday we went to Leavenworth WA on the spur of the moment. We drove through the mountains with the top down on the Corvette. The weather was beautiful. We just stayed overnight, since Hubby had to work Saturday. The place we stayed put us in a lovely corner room with a canopied, kind-sized bed and fireplace. The bed had two down comforters with duvet covers and a bottom sheet. :dubious: They said it was in the European style. I guess I haven’t been to that part of Europe.
When hubby was looking for a directory in a drawer, he found a handful of pills. They turned out to be Ampicillin, but yikes! We told the front desk, but they didn’t seem concerned. :rolleyes: We didn’t eat them so I guess there was no real problem.
The drive back was warmer, and we both got sunburned. I had sunscreen with me, but just forgot to put it on.
The trip took the edge off the stress, so it was worth it.

Oh Wise Rodent :wink: you have had a hard time and I hope a brighter future is ahead. You didn’t say how your grandfather is doing. Have you seen him?

As for me AH-CHOOOOOOOOOOO! Every summer since I was 15 I get hideous pollen allergies from ~May 15 to June 15. Started right on schedule yesterday. Bring on the hideous swollen eyes! Bring on the raw peeling nose. The sneezing and the dripping season has arrived! :rolleyes:

Morning, all. I feel like something scraped off the bottom of a shoe. I failed in my wireless attempt this weekend, so I will be returning the router I bought and getting a new one. I also need a new wireless card because the computer doesn’t even recognize mine now. I have no idea what happened to it. Suffice it to say that I am not enjoying the high-speed internet anywhere near as much as Mom is. She’s been watching a lot of humorous videos since we had it hooked up. A weird thing happened, though–IE won’t work on her computer. Luckily I had installed Firefox on her machine a few months ago, so she can browse the internet. IE worked up until about Friday and then spontaneously wouldn’t load any more pages.

Anybody here play chess? Spats taught me (sort of, as I was a bit confused) to play internet chess on Yahoo this summer, and I keep intending to get back to it, as I can’t find anyone to play real chess with here.

Cool OP, Rat. I can sympathize with your being noctournal. Given my druthers I’m the same way, but the reality of the workaday world has forced me to abandon that lifestyle in favour of the white collar 9-5 day, so I muddle along as best I can. I still do my best thinking/creating at night, though.

So, the thick of spring is definitely here, because just about all of the signs are now there:

  • I haven’t worn a jacket when I’ve gone out in two weeks.
  • The crew was repainting the lines in the mall parking lot last night.
  • There are birds flitting around my building’s parking garage and perching on gas pipes and light fixtures.
  • There are wee purple flowers on my workplace’s front lawn. I don’t know what they are, but they’re purdy.
  • I startled a rabbit from his hiding bush in front of my workplace.
  • They have fresh cherries at my work-local supermarket! I had to pick up a small bunch this morning. They’re hideously expensive ($8/lb), but great Og they’re good. I could have eaten a whole pound, but I stuck to less than half a pound (which still cost $3.)

My weekend was mainly spent working on someone’s computer. Despite my best efforts, it was in need of a complete Windows reinstall. I backed up what was necessary and reinstalled. Tonight I just have to install a dialup modem (he wants to switch from highspeed to dialup for whatever reason) and virus protection and he can cart it away to his daughter, who will no doubt reinstall LimeWire and Windows Live Messenger before all else. :slight_smile:

Okay, back to work before I end up never posting this due to constant interruptions.

Mork, did they look like these? Then they are violets.

Great OP, Smart Hairless-Tailed Creature. Papa Tigs was living on Kyushu (in Sasebo) when I met him (and joined him there briefly before we moved back to the States), but he was working for the Navy, not a Japanese company. So even though we lived on the economy, we truly had the best of both worlds, and it made for a very pleasant life. I really hated to leave. I especially hated to leave the neighborhood sento (bathhouse), which was truly a delight beyond description if you love soaking in hot, hot, HOT water. I would kill for an ofuro now as the closest I could get, but it’s still not enough. But your reasons for leaving are, obviously, kind of important – your health and your sanity definitely matter more than staying in the Land of Limited Opportunity for Gaijin! I hope things go well for you.

And I second the question: How is your grandfather?

Happy ( :dubious: ) Monday, all. I stayed up waaay too late last night finishing the job that was due today that my schedule for completion got all screwed up because of my cousin’s unexpected visit, so I am totally out of it today.

A funny thing happened in our house yesterday. Papa Tigs took the dogs to the beach and then came home and, apparently, fed them breakfast – neither Lapin Blanc, however, noticed him feeding them. So when Papa Tigs and I left shortly afterwards, I told Lapin Blanc that they still needed needed breakfast. They enthusiastically agreed and apparently scarfed down a second breakfast with no hesitation whatsoever. This ploy worked so well that they tried it again at dinner time, but by then we’d figured out what had happened and just laughed at them! Stoopid dogs. It’s been several years since they pulled off that trick, but obviously they’re still ready to try any chance they get!

I guess I shoud go caffeinate some more now, and try to get more than one brain cell at a time functioning. <yawn>

ETA we have a couple of patches of violets growing right near our front door, Puggy; they’re so lovely!

Oof. That sounds brutal. Here’s to a happy new life. As to women, I’ve got this very attractive intelligent neurotic cat lady co-worker I’m trying to marry off…

Great MMP, Oh Wise Whiskered One. I’m so glad you got out of that tough situation. What a pretty breed of dog!

My weekend was loverly! I got a new puppy on Saturday, in case some of y’all missed the news in the last MMP. :stuck_out_tongue: He didn’t poop in the house last night! Yay!

I got the obligatory Mother’s Day phone call from my son, right before he went to work. He’s doing well.

And last night I made an awesome dinner of grilled jerk shrimp, grilled zucchini and yellow squash, and grilled portobello mushrooms. As well as white rice, with olive oil, parsley and cilantro mixed in. Awesome! I should have made more shrimp - eight each wasn’t enough!

So back to work. Bah, humbug. I’d rather be home playing with puppies. :smiley:

SQUEEEEEEE!!! :slight_smile:

I really miss the violets in the lawn at my house in MA, mamatigs. The best we can do here are some tame creatures called violas.

After I came back from morning Mass, I decided to have a spinach and bacon bit omelet. I managed to rip the pull tab off the lid without opening it(manly bit #1). I used a rubber mallet and a Phillip’s screwdriver to pound holes in the can, and make a bacon shaker(manly bit #2). After breakfast we got gas($2.99/gal :eek: ), and went to the dogpark. The pest guy came by, and Maggie barked a little. Now she’s giving me the “I was ‘vicious’, don’t I get a cookie?” look.

tel, IE hasn’t work for me all weekend either. I wonder if there’s a virus going round?

Hey, I got a question for all y’all (which is Southern as we all know by now, for every damn one of you. :slight_smile: ) A kind of after-the-fact poll.

Should I have gotten my fiance something for Mother’s Day? We have been together over five years, live in the same house, and she has two adult daughters. What do you think?