Tomorrow’s Christmas Eve and I have to work.
It’s not like I have to go to the factory and punch buttons on the afternoon shift, or ring out last-minute shoppers at the mall, or even go sit at my desk and file a bunch of late TPS reports.
I actually just have to get up and roll in to my home office and do some stuff that’s due to a client Wednesday. It’s not really hard, maybe just a little tedious. Or maybe it’s hard, I don’t know. I’m not sure how long it’ll take, maybe 2 hours maybe 10.
But I just don’t want to work tomorrow. I want to stay up late tonight and watch some junk from Netflix On Demand. I want to sleep in tomorrow just to wake up and take a nap. I want to maybe go to lunch with my friend who’s in town and if it snows, take the dog out for a romp.
I cleaned my house even though no one is coming over. My dishes are all done and my clothes are all clean. I want to do anything but work tomorrow.
But I can’t. We’re a 3-man operation here. I gave the one guy the day off with pay, because I’m generous like that. He can’t do what I need to do anyway. My partner, the other guy, he’s on his yearly Christmas trip with the in-laws. I just got word from him that there’s no Internet access at all on the “side of the mountain” he’s on and I’ll only hear from him if he can make it “in to town.”
Not to be down on my partner. If I really hated him or was frustrated enough with him, I’d pit him. But goddammit…he keeps throwing these things at me and I keep trudging along and I’m running out of steam.
He threw Project A at me with little explanation and I went into it head first. Then he asked me to stop Project A and do Project B, which I worked a handful of overtime days on and it took way longer than he quoted. Then I said “ok I am taking a day off and coming back to do Project A again full time.” I took a day off (a day spent doing crappy un-fun stuff like errands) and when I came back he had a brief note for me saying to call Client C to get the specs on Project C and please do Project C before I get back to Project A. So I dutifully do so and it puts me another week behind on Project A. I finished Project C and spent 3 days working 18-hour days on Project A, took a sick day because I got sick (stress?) and worked Project A until this Thursday.
Thursday I get a brief IM/email conversation about how I need to do Project D, they need it next week and “ok I’ve got to go we’re going to be late for our plane.”
So I bust ass on Project D, get it half done, and shoot him an email asking if I am at least going in the right direction and when is this thing due, exactly?
Tonight he sends me an email “after trudging through the rain to get to this Internet cafe” telling me that what I’ve done so far looks good, but change this and this, and they are SHOWING it Wednesday. Cripes!
So tomorrow I get to sit around and wrap up Project D, somewhat blindly because although this is our company’s hugest project to date, I’ve been left in the dark about what exactly is expected and when. He’s too busy scheduling these other projects and presumably working on his own parts of Project D to keep me informed.
He’s not a total jerk, don’t get me wrong. This is just venting. I’ve been overworked lately and it’s just a slap in the face to have to be working on a day when no one else is (ok, plenty of fine folks are working Christmas Eve and Christmas Day but no one I know…and no one in my company!)
I’m sure I will be able to take off any day I want in the coming weeks, and I’m sure my raise in 2007 was pretty awesome, and my Christmas bonus (decided upon mutually by me and Partner) was way neat but…it’s just not cool to have to work tomorrow. Not cool.
People that ponder whether or not it’d be totally awesome to be your own boss…this is the dark side. When you’re your own boss you’re anything BUT your own boss. You become everyone else’s bitch.
So, yeah. Not to be all attention-whorish…whoever else is working on Christmas Eve against your will, shout out. We’ll be trudging through together.