I’m not going to be on the boards much or even online kdue to the events that have been building up for the past few months. I can’t make it to the dopefest in Ft.Lauderdale this weekend, and i’m sorry. two of my friends are being institutionalized; for how long i don’t know. A third friend is being psych evaluated, and a fourth friend may be headed to a mental hospital also. My grades have been sliping in some classes, I’ve got tons of work to do and little to no ability to manage it along with stirring things up around here. Hopefully this weekend i’ll be able to head out and get myself away from things to find focus. I need to do what i can to recover from all the stress and extenuating circumstances i’ve been dealing withfor the past 5+ months. When its all done and over with and my life is in enough balance, I’ll return to all of you. I just wish i could stop crying. It’s almost as if they’ve died slowly and finnaly ended it yesterday…It really hurts to watch someone who’s cracking and doesn’t think anything’s wrong, especially if you love them and are your closest friend. Thanks for listening…
-Tasha-
(She had me put this up for her thanks for listening and i hope everything turns out ok for anyone who has gone through anything simmilar i will be relaying any messages anybody needs to get to her thanx all
-PurePhreak)
I love you both, and I know especially for you Tasha, that these past few weeks, more these few days that life has been hell. I admire you even more since you aren’t breaking.(I would’ve cracked along time ago).
I love you both. Stay safe. And Tasha, I will have Thin Mints for you tommorrow to eat to your heart’s content.
I’m sorry to hear you won’t be able to make it to the dopefest. I know we were all looking forward to it. I completely understand, as I’m sure Montfort, etc. do, and we’ll all be hoping for you to return to us soon. I know things haven’t been going well lately, to say the least, and I hope that they turn around quickly. In the meantime, rest and unwind, and we’ll see you soon.
Yeah, I wrote that during my math class because I had already explained the situation to her and she saw that I couldn’t function enough to understand what was going on in class anyway. I realized that being on the internet for right now and probably the next month is the best thing I can do to help me help myself get back to “normal.” It’s a good thing that I’m working at the Renaissance festival near my house. [ http://www.ren-fest.com ] It’ll probably help to be one of the things that keeps me sane for now. I’m just glad I’m probably getting a chance to get back to where I should be soon. Thank god that my friend’s father is a counselor at the school that knows what he’s doing. I also found out more information about a friend that I’m not going to share that made me realize that I and a couple of friends may the only ones who are dealing well with things. Bye for now, and I’ll miss the fun and all the things that provoke me to think around here. Thanks for all your support. I’ve grown to love the people I encounter here… well, at least most of them.
-Tasha, master of the obvious. [Jessica always loved smilie faces, and it weirded me out sometimes.]
If you do want to contact me, ask one of my friends through email and I’m sure they could probably give you my mailing addresss. Mercutio, I’ll have one of them send my list for the burned cd for me. I don’t think I’ll be checking my email for a while just so I don’t end up on the internet when I shouldn’t be awake.
Lauren: yay!!! THiN MiNTS! I haven’t had girl scout cookies since I was a girl scout. I think I might be ordering some tagalongs from you too.
Dear ssskuggiii, you always seemed to me to be made of the sterner stuff and I know you will be able to make it through this period beautifully. Stay away as long as you think is helpful, but remember that here you have friends who have been through similar crap and lived to tell the tale.
And I am glad your friends are getting the help they need. We all need some help sometimes.
I feel so guilty right now. I just hurt a friend by telling her the mean truth and none of the nice truth to soften the bashing. She was one of the people taking it badly and I shouldn’t have said anything, at least not now when it seems that myself and one other person are handling it the best and we’re just swinging in and out of focus lately. Today I went from perfectly fine to floored in a split second over one word.
Anniz and I are here in Lauderdale, and were both looking forward to meeting you and Jess tomorrow. We’re both very sorry about all that’s happening to you; it sucks, but just know that it will get better.
If you need anything from this survivor of the Broward County School System, just e-mail me, okay?
I’m just glad I’m probably getting a chance to get back to where I should be soon. Thank god that my friend’s father is a counselor at the school that knows what he’s doing. I also found out more information about a friend that I’m not going to share that made me realize that I and a couple of friends may the only ones who are dealing well with things. Bye for now, and I’ll miss the fun and all the things that provoke me to think around here. Thanks for all your support. I’ve grown to love the people I encounter here… well, at least most of them. 
[Jessica always loved smilie faces, and it weirded me out sometimes.]