I’ve worked at the same place for over two years, and the people and the dynamics have stayed pretty much constant. I had always been shy, yet friendly to the other people in the building, there is more than one company, yet the same owners(sort of?).
There was one lady lately who kept coming through our area to get into and out of work, (shortest way to where she always had parked and they now lock the other closest door early) I always talked to her, she was nice and friendly, once in a while she would come in and say hi, on the way through she would stop and have meaningless conversation. I think she’s cool (apostrophe possesive or she is?). I kind of enjoy when she comes by, I get sick of the monotony. Its been several months like that. She came in and gave me some cookies the other day “Hey thanx!”
Then today I’m blasting away on the CAM computer up in the office and one of the girls that works with us comes in and says “so you know XXX”,
“Well duh?” ,
“She’s um, interested in you, she sent me an e-mail”
First off i’ve never thought of this girl sexually,(sort of, I’ve thought of EVERY girl that way). I never, ever, ever had the slightest clue,(the best in male intuition).
Second off, I should have known, both of the longest relationships in my life have started similarly.
I was like “huh?” stared at her for a while and she (thank god) said “do you want me to tell her that I just couldn’t ask you?”
1st thing, I’m bitter about women in general due to the bitter outcomes of past relationships.
2nd I did put on some (lot of) flub before I worked there(last crummy 4 year relationship packed it on) I’ve since lost about 40-45 lbs this year and reguarly go for bike rides at lunch and when its in season,ride to and from work, yes I wear the funny shorts (baggy variety), wussy helmet, and sissy shoes, yes she has followed my fat ass lycra encased ass into work, in her car, however I am still self concious.
3rd Previous relatinships leave my confidence in the dumpster and my opinion of women is less than stellar. I know that I can not go on like this forever, since I do want to find a “nice girl”. And I know that not all are like the previous.
This girl is a few years older than me (I’m not even 30 yet, that is no big deal), has no kids (BONUS, well not as big as it used to be), for me anyway. Now that I hear this, I was like HMMMM wait a second, lets see… I’m comfortable talking to her, I enjoy when she comes around… I do find her attractive (not BWAHHHHH Nicole Kidaman attractive), she is a pretty girl/lady(when do you hit the line) she is competent(sp?) and good at her job(from times I’ve had to go to her and co-workers have had to go to her for help), and she has been more than stellar in helping us, work ethic is one of my turn-ons.
Oh by the way, if any of you have stuck through this drivel, I would appreciate some feedback.