After dispensing much advice to strangers here I find myself asking for it for the first time. I’m stuck. Sorry this is so long!
About 3 1/2 years ago I met the woman I intend to spend the rest of my life with (I’m 50, she’s a few years younger; I have no kids and she has a terrific boy now 12). I live in a 1 1/2 bedroom new townhouse near the city, in a lively and happening area that I love - lots of restaurants, people of all different ages, types, shapes and colours, the diversity that is the best of what I love about Sydney. It’s near a major university so has lots of students and creative types around.
She lives in a large 5 bedroom older house somewhat further from the city, in a quiet suburban neighbourhood that’s reasonably well-off but, frankly, boring. The area has been transformed by the building of a huge shopping plaza that has sucked out what little life there was left around there. There is exactly one decent restaurant within 4 blocks of her place, whereas there’d be 40 that close to my place.
Her house was about 40% renovated when we met; now she’s thrown everything she has into getting the renovations completed in the last 2 years and is nearly done. Whether consciously or not, I suspect this is basically intended to prepare for me to move in there.
I love her and her boy, and want us to live together, but I just don’t like the area she lives in. She likes my area (being an artist and designer) but she has such a huge emotional and financial investment in her current place she’s understandably reluctant to sell everything she’s been working towards for the 8 or so years she’s lived there. She’s poured her creativity into this place and it is great, I have to say. I was able to help with some of the planning and decisions, and all that went very well.
Where she lives is quite close to her work, but where I live is quite close to her son’s school. She and her son have friends in both areas, but more in hers than mine. We’d need to buy a new place in my area as my home is far too small; she has set conditions on what kind of place she’d agree to move into in my area which make it, not actually impossible but very unlikely to fully meet; things like needing views in a certain direction, big enough so she could have a studio, off-street parking, lots of storage, and so on. Consciously or not, she’s making it difficult for the decision to go my way.
For my part, perhaps I’m exaggerating the attractiveness of my area to me and the disinterest I have toward living in her area, I don’t know. To add to all this I have something of a track record of giving in to domestic pressure and agreeing to stuff I later regret, which I’m determined not to do this time as the knowledge that I’ve done all the compromising has eaten away at previous relationships. This time I don’t want to give in for the sake of an easy life, I’ve always regretted that in the past.
Perhaps we’re too accommodating, but neither of us feels entitled to directly ask the other to leave the house they love and move into the other’s area.
About 6 months ago I gave myself 2 years to sort this out; again I didn’t want to rush into things this time (for instance, in my previous marriage I starting living with my wife-to-be only 6 weeks after meeting her and we married after only a year). I’ve been searching real estate in my area most weekends and have found only one place that was close to suitable, so the odds of finding that perfect place to tempt her away don’t look good!
So as I see it the options are:
1/ I give up my beloved home and area and just move in with her and her son, basically suck it up big boy!
2/ I press on and try to find somewhere in my area that conforms to her requirements, basically taking her at her word
3) keep going as we are and hope some solution presents itself
It seems to be she’s starting to get a bit restless with things as they are; for instance she’s created a space in her house where “a desk would go, if someone were to move in” , and I fully understand that as it’s been over 3 years. I’m not 100% sure I’m ready for the full-on hectic 24x7 family life thing yet, I feel like I’m still working through some issues from my marriage that was ending just as we met. Some stuff is still pretty raw. But I’m also not sure that I’m not just making excuses for things to go on as they are; I love things as they are, I stay at her place 3-4 times a week and she at my place once a week, but I get 2-3 nights to myself which I value greatly right now, as a way of helping sort my head out.
Also she’s basically spent every cent she has (and perhaps more) to do this, me moving in would solve her financial problems. I’m 100% certain this is not part of her motive for wanting me to move in! But if I was to choose option 1/ above I ought to do it now to help her in this way as soon as possible.
So for those understanding and patient souls who have read this far, thank you! If you have any advice, stories, or observations that might help us find our way through to be together as we want, I’d be very grateful.