Canvas, maybe you should read this whole thread before responding sort of…flippantly. It seems to have evolved into a dire situation
The reason I chose my screen name is over in MPSIMS or IMHO (can’t remember which, I’m too tired :D), under the thread “How did you get your screen name”, or something like that.
What was flippant about CanvasShoes’ response?
To all of you who are reporting this thread: we are aware of what’s going on, and are closely following events as they occur.
Sometimes, a thread of this nature needs to be closed to protect those involved. Sometimes, it may be better to leave it open, as it may help those involved. We believe this thread to be of the latter caliber.
Thanks to the Dopers for trying to help out someone they’ve never met. Y’all are a pretty special bunch.
You too, Ryled Up. So, how’s about you let us know what’s going on this morning?
I think she meant some of my other responses from posts on the first page.
And DAMMNIT, yes, I wish I had known.
Ryle Dup, I sincerely apologize for anything I said in GD that could have been misconstrued as being against you. I too support you completely. And no, I don’t think you’re “an ass” at all!!!
As I said in GD, (I wish I’d have known you were talking about you), I too have been down this path. A lot of people have.
I don’t hold one tiny thing against you for this “pitting”. If you’ll let me, I’d like to be one of those from whom you can get information and sharing about suicide and depression.
I apologize too for my “silly” posts to other people, I hadn’t gotten to the page where you’d made clear your distress. Believe me it’s NOT because I don’t take you seriously.
Juanita, it seems to me that she’s responding to all the early responses to thread, jokes about her name, jokes about moving, big smilies, and she maybe doesn’t realize yet that, at the risk of sounding like a movie trailer, someone’s life hangs in the balance. She ‘whiiiined’ at him and used big smilies, and I just don’t think it’s appropriate right now, and knowing Canvas like I do (via the boards) I don’t think she’d react this way to someone contemplating suicide.
Thanks for understanding Canvas.
I just stumbled across this from someones lj who is incredibly concerned for you, Ryle.
I lost a friend to suicide earlier this year (we think it was accidental, but he did have a history of depression… so it’s impossible to tell and now we’ll never know) and I don’t have much in the way of advice, seeing as I’m still battling my own demons and losing alot more often than I’d like to…
…But I can tell you that you will benefit no one with your passing. The old “Wow, maybe I should kill myself so I’m not such a burden on those around me” is false false false.
It’s not even remotely true.
I’m not sure if this is how you feel, but if it is… I promise you on my everything that I am, that no ones life will be easier without you.
If you can get through this, slowly and one step at a time… and maybe someday muster the strength to tell someone else “Hey, I’ve fucking been there. I know it’s hard. This is how I made it… let me help you.” then you will truly benefit someone.
It’s been over eight months now and I still wake up and fall apart when I realize I’ll never hear his voice again.
I still get nauseous when my head throws images of him lying there lifeless and stiff and ugly and nothing like the vibrant, well spoken, beautiful young man that I remember.
Those who care about you will never get over you. They will always miss you. They will always cry over you. They will always feel as though they’ve let you down. They will always struggle with the part of themselves that wants to blame you for not being okay and they will always hate themselves for not being able to help you.
This is not a fleeting concern. Many of us who are pulling for you and certainly Seige and those who know you IRL really do care. They care now and they will continue to care, even when you pull through this. That’s what caring is. This is such a small part of it. I’m also here… and willing to talk. My email is malkavs_angel @ hotmail (not sure if its in my profile) and I check the boards regularly.
A dear friend of mine has an older sister who commited suicide about five years ago.
She still writes her letters and one day she shared this with me… which sent me into a crying fit that was too powerful to hold in, just a little… and I want to share it with you.
"and suddenly I realized, for the hundred and fiftieth FUCKING time, but also for the very first time, that I will never, ever get to look at or talk to my big sister again. Do you know what that’s like? An entire person, life story, history, toothy smile, laugh, personality that you know almost as well as your own–gone. My sister does not exist. There is no such thing as Jennifer. I am an only child.
For others that are scared of heights, you know that feeling you get, when either standing on a really high balcony or something, or dangling your legs off the edge of something high up? The feeling in your legs when they go numb and cold and unreliable and tingly?
It actually physically felt like that, when I realized again.
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I am here. I am listening.
I’m holding thoughts of serenity and clarity for you right now.
Great post Malk. Please listen Ryle. So many of us have been in similar situations. The loss of you, your mind, your thoughts, your love and caring for other people would be a tragedy to EVERYONE, even those who don’t know you yet.
Just realising all the people you have touched on this board alone should mean a great deal to you (I hope). It would to me if I were in your shoes. I would gladly trade places with you if it would help you get through this, if I could. Whatever it would take for you to get back on your feet…
Stick around, we all have a lot to learn from you and you from us.
I’ve followed this thread from the beginning trying to think of what to say that might help you. All I seemed to do is end up crying. I’m crying for Scott and Myrna and Justin. They all left life much to soon, and I couldn’t help them. Please don’t give me someone else to cry for.
We really do care about you. Many of us have been where you are. You can beat this, and we can help. A few years ago I faced these demons and I conquered them. Believe me if a wimp like me can do it so can you.
But you have to reach out for help. That’s what I think you are doing with this thread. So please accept the help offered. We do care about you.
G’mornin’ all. 
Hey Ryle, any chance of popping in here to say g’day? We’re very keen to know that you’re OK.
Ryle Dup: I’ve read the whole thread, and I’d like to echo all the people who have said that they DO care about you. If you’re reading this, please get some help… I’ve heard nothing but good things about Cecil’s Place.
I don’t know if this will help, but I’ve been there too. I remember going to my counsellor at school and pouring out all the hurt and pain that I’d gone through. (if you want more details, look up a thread entitled something like “cruel and unusual childhood punishments”)
I sincerely hope that you find a way to talk it out, to go to the proper professionals, to not do this thing that you may still be contemplating.
Life still isn’t easy for me at times, especially with all the memories that get reawakened every so often. I’m not claiming that it’s going to be all rosy from here on in, because it’s not. There are people here who care about you… they may not type out replies from the heart (as others have done before me), but they are viewing this thread.
Please keep posting somewhere so that we know you’re still with us… CJ and so many others around here have good hearts, and truly do care for you.
F_X
I’d like to add one more thing: in my heart, I truly believe that you do not want to take your own life. I agree with Tinkertoy: by creating this thread, you were asking for help to deal with the problems that you’re currently facing.
Again, please get this help in some fashion. We don’t want to see you go over the edge of that cliff.
F_X
Any word from Ryle? I tried to join Cecil’s Place, but I don’t think my Yahoo Mail works anymore. Eeesh.
I don’t want to muddy the waters. I am worried sick about this kid. Can someone contact him just to check on him and leave a post somewhere so we can all breathe a little easier? Surely there is a way to find him. I think there are a lot more people worrying about him than are posting.
Please read:
http://boards.straightdope.com/sdmb/showthread.php?threadid=206974
(and, incidentally, I’m having problems with MY Yahoo account too)
Thank you sylphishone, I’ve been checking this thread all day and worrying too.
Ryle, there are an awful lot of very nice people who are concerned about you and want very much to hear that you’re okay. I hope that counts for something.
koee
Ryle, please check your email. Good to hear from you today.
Folks, Ryle has just posted over at Cecil’s Place, and he is still with us. Battered, and a bit down, but he’s still here. Those of us for whom high school was a form of hell know he’s got a journey ahead of him that’s going to look very long at times, but he’s still with us for now. Broke as I’ve been at times, I’ll take what I can get.
Thank you, everyone. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I do believe it’s about time I did the Happy Naked Dance around the living room!
CJ