A more mundane and pointless subject I cannot imagine, but I just felt like announcing that as of today I’m out of the closet. I don’t know if you would call this official, as I have only told my closest friends, and have yet to tell my parents. Irregardless, I feel that this is something I need to say, even if it is to people, who to me shall remain anonymous.
I must say, it feels nice to get something like this off of my chest. I was in the closet quite strongly all through high school, thankfully. I say that because I don’t think I could have made it out alive if I were to admit such a thing to myself. Not that I feared for my life in anyway, I just don’t think that emotionally I was ready to cope with that fact. Now though, I do feel that I am ready. I have struggled with this decision for about two years, all of it starting once I entered University (to trot out a tired cliché, if there were ever one ). But after I made it, everything seemed to fall into place. Personally, I feel that it was the best thing that I ever did. I’m glad I managed to come to grips with this now, rather than 10 -20 years down the road. I can truly be myself now.
It’s funny how life works, I mean, the signs were all there for quite sometime, but still, the fact that I managed to ignore them for so long still astounds me.
I’m not sure why I’m writing this right now. Maybe it’s for acceptance from the general public (meaning the wonderful folk who frequent the boards), or maybe, I just am feeling the need to shout it out to the world, to have it written indelible in the ether of the web, where I have no power of changing what I wrote. Sort of a point of no return I guess. Either which way, thank you if you made it this far, and thank you for listening, it’s greatly appreciated, even if I am rambling on somewhat…