About one month ago, I had my first encounter with MDMA.
Yes, very original and interesting - I know.
Let’s just leave it at an inadequate “ecstatic”.
I took this first pill - and only, since - with the cocksure intent that it
would be my first and only. For a little while afterward, I was delighted with my secret abjectness combined with strength of character.
My strong character has since wavered.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not externalizing my struggle with willpower -
I don’t crave Ecstasy, though I enjoyed it so much.
**My question is basically this:
If I can do it again to little or no ill-effect (as I am convinced I have already done), then…why shouldn’t I?**
I thought maybe the straight dope message board cohort (whom i trust, after a year of enjoyable lurking (hi everyone!) ) could telegraph in some sense.
P.S. Notice my choice of Great Debates - as far as I know, there has nothing been
said about the neurotoxicity of the drug that is not hotly contested.
Likewise, I have little doubt that long term heavy use is damaging.
Please assume that should I ever do Ecstasy again, the indulgences will
be few and far between and the dosage “moderate”.