Did you ever hang out at reddit? Specifically r/relationships?
Because before I discovered that place, I thought being in a relationship must be the best thing evah, since it seems like everyone is either in one or trying to be in one, and I assumed something was wrong with me not wanting to be in the game. But after just a few minutes of perusng those threads, it hit me how much relationships can suck. I realized there are plenty of valid reasons for not wanting to be involved with someone.
Now I know people will tell me that most relationships aren’t that bad…or that is worth it to endure some bad ones to get to the good ones. But that sounds like something people say to justify why they tortured themselves. I’d rather find pleasure and joy in ways that don’t cause pain and suffering. Maybe I’m just a simple fool for feeling this way, though. Perhaps one day I’ll have regrets.
Q, Its just time to think & work on yourself. Ignore the chatter, find something that makes you happy, and on a regular schedule make time for you to do it. Best Wishes, btw.
…and if, some day, some endorphin madness hits you about someone else, we’ll be here for you.