And this is why you never ask for relationship advice on the Dope, particularly if Dopers have expressed at any time that they dislike you. You will always be told just to quit whatever it is you’re trying to do, and the latter means they’ll also make fun of you by calling you stupid. In general, few people here have advice for how to deal with life other than run away from it.
If you want advice for stuff like this, go to a board that specializes in this stuff, not a board that specializes in misanthropic people.
And, no, I have no idea how to help you in this. I’ve just seen the pattern too many times to think that this thread is some sort of exception.