I’ll beg to differ here. His final speech was defiant, not apologetic. I have no idea whether he was guilty of the crimes he was accused of, but he was quite adamant that he was wrongfully accused. I only post it here to set the record straight… he was not apologetic in the least.
Here’s a transcript of the end of R. Budd Dwyer’s last press conference:
http://www.moderntv.com/modtvweb/qtclips/buddtr1.htm
I’m including the entire transcript as I don’t believe there are any copyright issues involved. Also, it was shown on various local news outlets, and video of this event can be found on the net. I won’t provide a link, but you can find it if you want. It’s quite sad and very gruesome. It’s even difficult to read, so if you are the least bit squeamish, do not proceed. Anyway…
…and I’m on the last page now, and I don’t have enough to pass out, but Duke, I’ll leave this here and you can make copies, uh, for the people here, and there’s a few extra copies right now…
I thank the Good Lord for giving me 47 years of exciting challenges, stimulating experiences, many happy occasions, and, most of all, the finest wife and children any man could ever desire. Now my life has changed, for no apparent reason. People who call and write are exasperated and feel helpless. They know I’m innocent and want to help. But in this nation, the world’s greatest democracy, there is nothing they can do to prevent me from being punished for a crime they know I did not commit. Some who have called have said that I am a modern-day Job.
Judge Muir is also noted for his medieval sentences - I face a maximum sentence of 55 years in prison and a $300,000 fine for being innocent. Judge Muir has already told the press that he, quote, “felt invigorated” when we were found guilty, and that he plans to imprison me as a deterrent to other public officials. But it wouldn’t be a deterrent because every public official who knows me knows that I am innocent - it wouldn’t be a legitimate punishment because I’ve done nothing wrong. Since I’m a victim of political persecution, my prison would simply be an American Gulag.
I ask those that believe in me to continue to extend friendship and prayer to my family, to work untiringly for the creation of a true justice system here in the United States, and to press on with the efforts to vindicate me, so that my family and their future families are not tainted by this injustice that has been perpetrated on me.
We were confident that right and truth would prevail, and I would be acquitted and we would devote the rest of our lives working to create a justice system here in the United States. The guilty verdict has strengthened that resolve. But as we’ve discussed our plans to expose the warts of our legal system, people have said “why bother”, “no one cares”, “you’ll look foolish”, “60 Minutes, 20/20, the American Civil Liberties Union, Jack Anderson and others have been publicizing cases like yours for years, and it doesn’t bother anyone”.
At this point in time… is Bob Bolstey here? Bob… and where’s Greg… can you come up here? And where’s Don Johnson… can you come up, Don?
Budd begins handing out sealed envelopes…
Greg… where are you… okay, just hang onto that right for the moment… Don, there’s some things for you to do, and there’s a note in here for Joanne…
…he returns to the podium and pulls out a .357 Magnum revolver…
When I… and I…
The crowd begins shouting - “Don’t do it! Budd, no, no!”…
Please leave the room if this will… if this will offend you…
“Budd! Budd, no! Budd, don’t do this!”…
Budd warns them off:
…no, no, don’t, don’t, don’t… this will hurt someone…
…sticks the gun into his mouth, fires, and falls… the room erupts in horror…
…then Duke, Dwyer’s aide, speaks:
All right… settle down. Don’t panic, please… don’t panic… don’t panic. Someone call… someone call the ambulance and a doctor and the police… don’t panic, please… show a little decorum, please… dear god in heaven… all right… all right…