I have recently - and quite foolishly - embarked on a fast-developing crush on someone, and I don’t like it. I’ve been in back-to-back relationships for so long and have only been recently single and am enjoying it, but the damned beautiful creature in question (a twin-legged homo sapiens sapiens female) literally fell out of the sky into my way, and, again, I don’t like it.
Other reasons I don’t like it is that I’ve had an emotionally violent history full of me being irrational when infatuated with someone, and I don’t like this happening again. In fact, I’ve promised myself to avoid this stuff for a long time. Additionally, I have neither financial nor emotional business being in love with someone to be honest, and I consider this to be a ridiculous luxury for someone of my standing. Furthermore, she’s an elegant and beautiful human being, and I am not. I am also afraid of rejection, on top of the aforementioned reasons, but it’s not literally on the top of the list.
So how do I get out of this sordid enterprise? So far she has provided zero indications to anything close to liking me at all, and I wouldn’t imagine she would have any reasons to, and am therefore free to withdraw myself either slowly or abruptly from her life - in which I have near-zero presence, I might add. But how do I do this?
How do I control myself and let go? As any other sentimental man may tell you, I’ve been in endless crushes throughout my life, and I always knew never to take them seriously, because I could tell it’s the old infatuation with any new attractive woman in sight, and I was always quite right about that. But I’ve talked quite a bit to this woman, and she’s goddamn love material.
So. How do I discipline this insatiable, love-hungry beast within me? How do I return to sanity?