Any suggestions on how I can stop thinking so much? For almost all of my waking hours, my mind is flying along thinking about stuff like:
string theory, quantum mechanics, physics, astrophysics, chemistry, mathematics, logic, programming, fractals, random number generation, algorithms, probability, evolution, cellular automata, nanotech, religion, spirituality, philosophy…
It’s like I have equations and theoretical concepts floating around in my head all the time. While I suppose it is somewhat comforting to know that I understand all of this stuff, it’s very frustrating when I can’t stop thinking about it. At times I feel that since this is all I can think about, then obviously that is what I should pursue with my life.
However, sometimes I wish I didn’t understand all this stuff. At times I wish that I could just not have my mind on overdrive. Admittedly, a lot of the concepts I come up with are incorrect, but it’s the actual thought process that annoys me. Sometimes I wish I was just kind of, well, dumb.
It’s very frustrating, because even though I know all this stuff, I don’t want to do anything with it. And yet, I feel like I have some sort of obligation to do so. It’s like I have this cross to bear, where I feel like I should be doing something with it. But I think that I would much prefer to be a dumb carpenter than have all these thoughts floating around.
I don’t know if seeing a psychologist would help, because I fear that they would say something like “Oh, you’re an autistic savant” or “Oh, you’re an uber-genius”, and that be some other weight on my shoulders I would have to deal with. If I went to a psychologist… I would want them to just make me dumb.