So this is how I found out about the funding freeze.
We got an email from MDHHS, a funder that contributes to approximately 40% of our operating budget through federal pass-through spending, that said, “Yeah, about that funding freeze, we have no idea if this affects us or not. We’ve received no clarification. We’ll keep you posted.”
We also got an email from Office on Violence Against Women (WOKE GENDER IDEOLOGY) suspending drawdown for our transitional housing program.
These are for grants that have already been awarded.
While the freeze has been rescinded, I am fully confident that Trump will either eliminate OVW or remake it in his own image, and that most of the people I’ve come to know through the Division of Victim Services will be on the chopping block, since they put diversity questions in their grant applications. All federal employees who have anything to do with the grants process are now Schedule 4F.
It’s the fucking wild west, man. Today my boss asked me to review our agency website to identify places where we talk about DEI and marginalized communities. I initially refused to do it but she assured me she doesn’t want to take it down, she just wants to know what’s up there so when Trump inevitably refuses to provide federal funding to any agency that cares about equality, we can strip it out pretty quickly. I want to vomit just writing that. This is exacerbated by the fact that conservatives have slowly been taking over my once stolid grass-roots progressive agency from the top-down. They don’t give a shit about DEI. This is not a leadership team that is going to go down swinging.
I am a fucking social worker. I’m pretty sure his next executive order will be to make us illegal. I’m pretty sure domestic violence and sexual assault services, which disproportionately serve women, will be considered too woke to fund. Is my career in this field soon to be over? Who the hell knows.
Things are already bad even without the funding freeze – we’re expecting a VOCA cut of 75% nationwide, and honestly I’ll be shocked if VOCA survives Trump’s cronies at all. What that will look like practically is that nationwide, about 50% of staff positions serving survivors of sexual assault and domestic violence will be eliminated. And let me tell you, we’re not even fully staffed now. We are swamped.
Before the funding freeze, it felt like trying to save a sinking ship with a bucket. I have been trying so hard to find meaning in my work again, and I was almost there until this shit. But that’s what the fucker wants. He wants to hurt us so much we stop trying. Well, I’m not gonna fucking stop trying. If I have no other source of meaning left, let it be spiting this asshole.